Holcomb, Edward Diary (1863)

The is the diary of Edward Holcomb who served with the 111th New York Infantry during the Civil War. It contains details of this common soldier’s life, January 1-December 31, 1863.[page 1] Thursday, January 1, 1863 In the army at the stockaded camp Vermont near Alexandria I think would like to b...

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Main Author:	Holcomb, Edward
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Published:	Auburn University Libraries
Subjects:	Diaries
Online Access:	http://content.lib.auburn.edu/u?/civil,26054

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collection	Civil War Diaries Collection
building	Auburn University Digital Library
publisher	Auburn University Libraries
topic	Diaries
spellingShingle	Diaries Holcomb, Edward Diary (1863) Holcomb, Edward
fulltopic	Diaries Holcomb, Edward; United States. Army. New York Infantry, 111th (1862-1865); United States--History--Civil War, 1861-1865 History – 1838-1874: Sectionalism, the Civil War and Reconstruction; Peoples -- Military Life; Government and Politics -- Military
description	The is the diary of Edward Holcomb who served with the 111th New York Infantry during the Civil War. It contains details of this common soldier’s life, January 1-December 31, 1863.[page 1] Thursday, January 1, 1863 In the army at the stockaded camp Vermont near Alexandria I think would like to be at home I want the book Out Self Made, or Out of the depths Mrs. E.D.E.N. Southworth [page 2] Friday, January 2, 1863 Seek first the Kingdom of God + his righteousness + all these things shall be added unto you [page 3] Saturday, January 3, 1863 Fear thou not; for I am with thee I will strengthen thee; yea I will help thee; Yea I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee [page 4] Monday, January 5, 1863 [text upside down] Names of men + officers Co. E. 111 Regm’t + N.Y. Vols July 24th 1863 Lieut. George Brown Sergt. J.G. Gardner Corp. Myron H. Force Corpls Edward L. Parsons Private Frank Bailard “ Henry Conine “ Myron Collins “ Daniel Grandin “ Edward S. Holcomb “ Leman H. Purchase “ John Bush “ Peter See “ Charles M. Sentell “ William Stacy “ William Segrist “ Christopher Synder [page 5] Sunday, January 4, 1863 [text upside down] Continued Private John H. Wortly Private Thomas J. Jenkins Private Daniel N. Cray [page 6] Tuesday, January 6, 1863 P.W. Kenyon Newark G.W. Ostrander Miss R.E. Ostrander [page 7] Thursday January 8, 1863 Why do I live by Rev. Thom Smyth A.T. Soc. [text upside down] Wounded in battle July 3 Myron Van Winkle Dwight Garlock Ayers Allen Bart Brown on skirmish since died Sergt. Thom Morris C. Bathlvn Armstrong Whittecher Devos E. Whitmore Rose Sentell Fritz Coons Harmon Gatesman Prosens [page 8] Friday January 9, 1863 Battle pin Louis Phillips 609 Broadway C Munro Brown 74 Bleeker B.G. Hayward 208 Broadway [text upside down] Killed in battle July 9 Sam B. De Con thr the temple D.D. Bartholomew by shell W.B. Barrnet A Van Valbenberg Matt Westbrook H. Roberts Will Whitmore Jim Griswold John Cripps Thomas Hawkins in skirmish [page 9] Sunday January 11 [text upside down] Alphabetical list of killed + wounded (on next page) Lieut Prosens Corp Barrnet “ Vanvalhenburgh Private Bartholomew “ Brown wound in skirmish Cripps De Con Griswold Hawkins Roberts Westbrook Wm Whitmore Ed Prosens mortally wounded [page 10] Saturday January 10 [text upside down] + wounded Serg Morris Rathbone Armstrong Privates Allen Ayers Coons Devos Fritz Gatesman Garlock Harmon Prosens_______ since died Sentell slightly Rose Van Winkle Whitbeck C. Whitmore [page 11] Tuesday January 13, 1863 Pork Cake 1lb salt pork chopped fine 1 teaspoonfull salt or 4 of soda Pour on 1 teacup of hot water cloves or cinnamon 1 qt of flour 2 cups of raisins 2 cups of sugar bake one hour or nearly 1 cup of molasses [text upside down] 2 officers 4 sergeants 3 corporals 39 men [page 12] Wednesday January 14, 1863 Gingerbread or Cookies 2 cup of molasses 8 tablespoonful of water 1 “ full of Alum dissolve 2 “ ginger 2 “ soda 4 “ butter or lard [page 13] Friday January 16 Joshua E. Fithian Co. G. 12th N Jersey Vols from Cedarville Cumberland Co. New Jersey [page 14] Saturday January 17 Lorenzo Ames 9th Michigan Battery Hudson Suwannee Co. Michigan [page 15] Sunday January 18 D.W. Fansher Sergt. Co. L. 5th Michigan Cavalry from Kalamazoo Michigan [page 16] Thursday January 22 [text upside down] E. S. Holcomb Go to Harvey Heath at Ward 7 Lincoln Hospital + get eight dollars + mail to my sister Ruth E. Ostrander Sep 12th 1863 Geo W Ostrand [page 17] Saturday January 24, 1863 Sact The power of self adaptation No every new opening of Providence strive to fill a new place with naturalness [page 18] Sunday January 25, 1863 “Go then, earthly fame + treasure; Come disaster scorn, + pain; In Thy service pain is pleasure, With thy favor los is gain. I have called thee, Abba, Father, I have set my heart on thee; Storms may howl, + clouds may gather All must work for good to me.” [page 19] Tuesday January 27 [text upside down] Sundries pd Sover @ Laing cash 8.00 Bacon 92 ½ @ 8 ½ Soverhill order [page 20] Saturday January 31 Extract from a Syrian Poem “Sometimes I weep alone to think that I have lost thy love forever---and then, oh!bitterly I weep to see thy mother’s furrowed brow—full well she feels the treasure lost---the yound child + the beautiful. I marvel not, angel, that thou art gone –for heaven were better fitted for thy home than earth; but I marvel that we can live yet awhile on earth –live without thy smile.” “And thou who couldn’t barely resist the cold---thy fate is hard—nor friend to whisper comfort nor careful eye to watch – in thy cold solitary, mysterious grave—none can give comfort. But how foolish! I speak to dust. Thy soul, thank God! Is far beyond the hurt of man or evil spirit.” [page 21] [note: the month February is marked through and 1863 changed to 1864, the marking through doesn’t last very long.] Friday January 1 1864 Morning very thick fog but warm Have finish a letter to wife to day or this morning Spend some time looking for shells for wife. No letter to day this evening name put down for a furlough no war news to day of interest the news from Southern news are very despondent [page 22] Saturday January 2, 1864 Bitter cold west wind no letters to day from wife a letter from Father no particular news have seen no paper to day help scrub the floor this morn went to H.d. qtrs. To report for furlough expect to go home soon say Monday wishing it was not so cold to day Why dont my wife write to me it is too bad something is the matter I fear. How can it be so [page 23] Sunday January 3, 1864 Cold windy day yesterday was the coldest of the season go to chapel this morning am not particularly please with Episcopal ceremonials very good congregation no sermon, it is communion day it is the general impression that we go home tomorrow afternoon, I hope it will be so To days paper says that the English at last have come to the conclusion that the south must give up + the southern paper see no further hope for them. Gold in the southern states is at an enormous premium 20 to 30 dollars for one dollar in gold Flour at $150 per barrel coffee $250 a lb sugar 9 [page 24] Monday January 4 1864 Cloudy this morning + not so cold as for 2 days past Names taken down for furlough [page 25] Tuesday January 5, 1864 Not quite so cold Times seems heavy I am so anxious about mine at home [page 26] Wednesday January 6, 1864 Quite comfortable to day the lecture was exceedingly poor last evening could not understand the speaker at all + then instead of Pneumatic S he tried to tell something about every thing connected with air + water Health ventilation + the lungs no letters yet what doe it mean [page 27] Thursday January 7, 1864 The mildest day for the last week spent the day in reading Coopers Deerslayer Feel quite down for want of news from home Geo. Ostrander starts for home this morning I expect to go to morrow [page 28] Friday January 8, 1864 Snowing this morning + has been snowing most all night Did not rest well although I got a furlough to go home for fifteen day + shall start immediately after dinner should have gone sooner but wait for letters from home but wait in vain This is cruel in deed Can it be_______[blank] [page 29] Wednesday February 11, 1863 Democrat One who adheres to a government by the people or favors the extension of the right of suffrage to all classes of men Democracy Government by the people. A form of government in which the supreme power is lodged in the hands of the people collectively [page 30] Thursday February 12 Republican One who favors or prefers a republican form of government Republic A commonwealth: a state in which the exercise of the sovereign power is lodged in representatives elected by the people. [page 31] [page 32] Sunday February 15 Drizzling rainy day no inspection [page 33] Monday February 16 Springlike beautiful day get a pass + start for Wash only go to Bark’s station mud is very deep [page 34] Tuesday February 17 Snow all day arrive in Washington about 10 oclock go to see some of the public buildings + see the Senate + Representative in session [page 35] Wednesday February 18 P K Armstrong Dr P.K. Armstrong Dr To memorandum 30 to paper + envelopes 70 C.F. Short Dr Proseno pd Dr To paper + envelopes 30 Bartholomew dru to Stamps 30 17 stamps Rainy day get back to camp just at night very tired + sore [page 36] Thursday February 19 In camp to day wet + sloppy received a letter from And sold most of my stuff right off to get the money I owe Bartholomew 400 He owes me for Express 30 “ “ “ washing 20 [page 37] Friday February 20 Sun shine out clear but the wind blows hard sent a letter to my wife to day with my allotment of 16 dolls hope she will get it gave Ben Strong 1 doll to buy postage stamps and 2 dolls for Barnett myself + others to pay for the Daily morning chronicle for 2 months Johnson has come in + brought some butter so bread + butter for his + my supper a rarity in deed [page 38] Saturday February 21 Quite a pleasant day Johnson left me this morn I wrote a letter for him nothing of interest to day [page 39] Sunday February 22 Snow all day + cold no one stirs out hardly saw the men only at meal times no war news Write a letter for Bartholomew to his wife ought to write to my own The day has been more like Sabbath than before in a long time [page 40] Monday February 23 Sun shines out warm + clear the snow melts some no particular news to day all seems very quiet Encouraging reports from the S.W. Should think the banking bill just passed a bill of great importance [page 41] Tuesday February 24 Very fine day rather cool although thawing some Co. draw 140 lbs. of Fresh beef this eve read in the Herald extracts from South papers they how terribly over the Europeans + Democrats [page 42] Thursday February 26 Bartholomew has had 5 stamps [page 43] Friday February 27 Enclose a five doll Treasury note No 2752 to my wife to day Bartholomew recd a letter from w no particular war news Barnett + I get our first paper Co draw 7 qts molasses a nice warm day [page 44] Sunday March 1 A beautiful day springlike high wind afternoon draw rations except beans write a letter for Barthol last night the long role was beat in anticipation of an attack false alarm Recd for soap grease 2.25 [page 45] Monday March 2 Cool fair weather no excitement to day all is quiet about here The order is read on dress parade I M. Lusk is appointed major [page 46] Tuesday March 3 Cool + fair + cloudy Thunder showers towards night Just at night Hollis Johnson comes he looks very bad ought to be discharge [page 47] Wednesday March 4, 1863 Have written a letter for Bartholomew + one for Johnson to mail this morn Johnson goes back to hospital at U Mills The sky is clear but it is very cold raw wind have beans for dinner draw 140 lbs beef to day Fresh Parsons + I bought 20 cts worth of meal [page 48] Thursday March 5,1863 An splendid day but last night was severely cold, could hardly keep warm a good deal of excitement to day reports of the rebel pickett + being in sight from our pickett lines It is very strange I do not hear from home [page 49] Saturday March 7, 1863 Loan J Teats 1 post stamp + 9 Envelopes + 2 envelopes a rainy day answer De Garno’s letter of Feb 16 [page 50] Sunday March 8, 1863 Bartholomew De to 2 stamp + cash 16 [page 51] Monday March 9, 1863 A clear fair, warm day beautiful last night oh how it rained this morn a party Rebs entered our lines + captured a General + 4 aids also took off about 30 horses + a wagon + some other property Emery Pratt is not expected to live till morning Have finished a letter to my wife this eve The left wing of our Reg,t came off picket this morn report 17 persons came from secessia to line on to be protected Lieut Marshall is under arrest for leaving his post to early in the morning [page 52] Tuesday March 10, 1863 Mail a letter to my with a 2 doll Tre note no. 34309 Bartholomew Dr. To molasses 5 Stamps 3 [page 53] Monday March 16 Sell soap grease 2.25 P K Armstrong Dr. .15 Rose Dr To letter paper 30 Molasses 5 Bartholomew Dr To molasses 5 Van In wager Dr Molasses 15 [page 54] Friday March 20 Signs of a storm Boys go out on picket the news from the North is more encouraging Copperheads will soon be along ways below par [page 55] Saturday March 21 Snowy day sloppy + drizzly draw rations refuse the beef 2 days rations receive a letter fro Johnson Mr. Mack of Ontario calls on this evening has seen Col.Andrus on his way to Washing has been home on a furlough [page 56] Sunday March 22 Nice warm spring day mud dries up fast Co inspection by commdants inspection of quarters by L.C. Smith [page 57] Monday March 23 Nice day spring like four men detailed to help the cook tent is stockaded a great help to me [page 58] Tuesday March 24 Cloudy to day the Regmts of our Brigade move up here near us from Union Mills the idea seems to be to strengthen this position No mail to day [page 59] Wednesday March 25 The past night has been rainy but the day is fine Current report this morning that a train of cavalry + bagge wagons have been seen over in rebeldom [page 60] Friday March 27 No morning news from Vicksburg: God help us [page 61] Saturday March 28 Very rainy day mail letter for H. Johnson [page 62] Sunday March 29 All 19 men 1 corp 1 serg gone out on pickett Two rebel ladies want to come through too go to N.Y. but don’t want to take the oath A fine day only a bitter cold wind. The men ordered to have all ready for a fight The rebels reported advancing upon us under Jackson + Stuart [page 63] Monday March 30 Beautiful day George Gatesman shot in the should last night by the picket a cowardly action Bartho got letter from Helen Last night a man shot in the ancle by Camp Guard of the 125 Reg must stop when halted to night haversacks ful also canteens ready for action a man shot in the leg by the guard; must stop when challenged [page 64] Tuesday March 31 Snowing like fun this morning paid Bartholomew 70 cts I now owe him three doll,s Tents owes me 1 stamp + 3 Envelopes I want to hear from home Report Evacuation of Richmond [page 65] Wednesday April 1 6 men + 1 sergeant on pickett wind a hurricane + cold not much wood hope the tent will stand the gale. Soup for dinner [page 66] Thursday April 2 Cold but clear High wind to night Refugees still keep coming telling hard things of Rebel I guess all signs of a battle here have blown over for the present the boys complain of battalion drill this P M [page 67] Friday April 3 A warm day nice + clear to day we read that all rebs caught with Union uniform are to be treated as spies It is reported the Paymaster is at the 125 camp [page 68] Saturday April 4 Johnson receives word that he must come home to attend to his Insurance Suit [page 69] Monday April 6 Curious weather no war news reliable. A report is in circulation that 2000 Rebs have crossed towards us at Thoroughfare Gap [page 70] Tuesday April 7 Johnson one stamp Ostrander one stamp [page 71] Wednesday April 8 Receive wife’s letter to day 22 March to 2 April George Gatesman came out to day G. Ostrander leave Hospital Receive for soap grease 2.25 [page 72] Thursday April 9 I want to send home by Johnson for some Nutmeg dried Fruit a vest pocket knife [page 73] Friday April 10 Windy but fine spend 5 cts for matches 5 (cts for ) sandpaper Beautiful weather [page 74] Saturday April 11 Ditro To day is General muster [page 75] Sunday April 12 Sold on acct of Co. C. 55 lbs coffee 15 cts per lb. Sold on account of Co. E 111 Regmt NY Dv 101 lbs of coffee at 15 cts per pound Sum total $15.15 Paid to Capt. Laing the Co fund recd this day [signed] J.A. Laing To morrow must be ready to take the field for active operations Recd letter from Harmon [page 76] Monday April 13 No movement to day drilling as usual Some fault found by D Garlock ________ let him come in cookhouse if he wants to A report comes to day that our folks have made a hole in fort Sumter [page 77] Tuesday April 14 Turned over to the Regimental Quartermaster 2 boxes of rice to by forwarded by supply train I suppose or am informed G Ostrander Gardner Armstrong Persons + I fill a box + march it Capt Laing It contains our surplus clothing A report some that Hooker has whipped the Rebs at Fredericksburg A most beautiful day report to night take Charleston [page 78] Wednesday April 15 How it rains rather cold No certainty of moving yet Lend Warriner cash Paid 10 cts Turned over to the Qr .Master I barrel rice weigh 244 lbs draw 2 ds rations Just this down for the heaviest of the season yet [page 79] Thursday April 16 Wet sloppy muddy cloudy warm Co E present their petition for a division of sugar + and cook because of my entertaining friends Dw Garlock Carey the paper but skedaddle [page 80] Friday April 17 Comfortable day Cloudy 9th Vermont Battery of 6 guns encamped to the right of us to day report says Hooker,s right wing is in sight. Also we are turned over to Hooker's Corps [page 81] Saturday April 18 Very comfortable day To night the orders transferring Gen Casey + placing Abercrombie over this division is read draw 3 days rations [page 82] Monday April 20 Very rainy a dull day no news of consequence [page 83] Tuesday April 21 Cloudy + cold mail 4 papers for my wife a letter to Andrus + a letter to Mrs Johnson Genl Hayes reviews the Brigade this afternoon Gardner under arrest to night for laughing on dress parade no letters from anybody [page 84] Wednesday April 22 Clear mild + beautiful Gardner still under arrest Ill quit cards [page 85] Thursday April 23 Geo Ostrander cre by loan of 4 Postage stamps Rainy day very so [page 86] Friday April 24 Rainy day very much so signed the pay roll to day Paid Bartholomew case $100 [page 87] Saturday April 25 Recd from the paymaster an Allotment No 657 + a ten dollar Treasury Note no 28946 which I send to my wife Received 4 months pay from U.S. Government Paid Bartholomew cash to balance 2.00 [page 88] Sunday April 26 No 28905 note sent by Johnson for Bartholomew Johnson starts fro home to day whether he goes or not Will go to Washington to day send by him a letter for self to wife Bartholomew to his wife short to his wife J.F. Robinson to his Father + a package for Armstrong to be sent by Express to North Pownall, Vt [page 89] Monday April 27 Rainy day [page 90] Tuesday April 28 I owe G Ostrander post stamps 11 cts I owe Bartholomew 4 Post stamps [page 91] Wednesday April 29 Cloudy + warm mailed a big letter to wife some excited to night over Geo Ost going to Ga Hous lend P K Armstrong cash 1.50 [page 92] Thursday April 30 P.K. Armstrong Dr to sundries 184 [page 93] Saturday May 2 Thus saith the lord: I am the Lord they God Fear me + keep my commands [page 94] Sunday May 3 Beautiful warm day went out to inspection to day the first since we came here but once writing to my wife much rather talk to her I am in hast to see the end of the war Orders to put up 3 days rations [page 95] Monday May 4 Mail a letter to wife to day an incident of the war not in papers yet. At the skirmish at Warrenton yester A capt of the 5 N.Y.C. took a reb prisoner + passing him to some of his men to take his arms from reb the prisoner shoots at the Capt wounding him in the face Capt immediately turns upon him with saber + nearly cuts Rebs head off at the first blow then attacks more rebs + kills two more instantly + wounds another [page 96] Tuesday May 5, 1863 Beautiful morning but heavy rain at night. Very exciting news from Hooper 4000 prisoners taken also a hard fight by the cavalry. Liet Co. Mcvickar of the 6 N.Y.C. is killed just at night comes the report by telegraph of the taking of Freder’gh with 40,000 prisoners hope it true Perhaps we begin to see the end Report to night Hooker capture 40000 prisoners + had possession of Freder [page 97] Wednesday May 6 Very rainy day want to hear from home have no word from there since a long time ago, only two letters a month seems pretty hard especially while soldiering I wish I was not so cross I do not feel so either, I do not want to be trouble Report to day that Hooker is repulsed + driven across the Rappak. Also Sigel’s Corps cut to pieces [page 98] Thursday May 7 Armstrong Dr 1.10 cts Report to day first that of same as yesterday but just after diner the President telegraphs that it is all false + that Hooker holds his position Ordered again to put in 3 days rations which was partially done Mail a letter to Andrus 3 papers to yf [page 99] Friday May 8 Armstrong paid me one dollar on acc [page 100] Saturday May 9 Beautiful day night has come but no word from home. Why do not they write am I forgotten [page 101] Sunday May 10 Write to my wife to as usual on Sunday no wood so not much to do go out to inspection [page 102] Monday May 11 Borrow of Bartholomew 3 stamps Armstrong pays me 2 dolls Recd wifes letter enclosing Willie her mothers of Frank [page 103] Tuesday May 12 I want to send home 8 cash + 12 postage stamps I will do it if I can get it [page 104] Wednesday May 13 To day intensely hot General review + inspection by General Hayes Rainy afternoon with heavy thunder [page 105] Thursday May 14 No war news to day The death of Stonewall Jackson is confirmed he died May 2d of amputation + Pneumonia The Regiment are throwing up entrenchments in front of the camp [page 106] Friday May 15, 1863 To night To night receive a letter from Brother Andrus: he is well + sends a good letter Fell disappointed in not getting one from my wife Trust + hope all are well at home. Father protect them. This is the 3d day the boys have worked upon the entrenchments commence at 5 this morning + work 4 hours. 3 work 4 hours commencing 4 in the P.M. [page 107] Sunday May 17 Bright beautiful warm day Inspection as usual this A.M. have written a letter to wife to day hope it will be happily received [page 108] Monday May 18 Who so findeth a wife finde Who so findeth a wife findeth a good thing + obtaineth favor of the Lord A man that had friends must show himself friendly: and there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother sent by mail to my wife a letter enclosing one Dollar Treasury note [page 109] Monday May 25 An Telegraph from the President to day says Vicksburg is taken [page 110] Thursday June 4 The first day have attempted to work since May 24 685 leave camp for home at 12:10 Expenses from Alexandria to Washington depot 30 to Baltimore 1.50 to Canandargna 6 85 to P [page 111] Friday June 5 Arrive at Elmira at 12 10 arrive at Canandargne 6:30 Hire a black with others for Palmyra 1.35 [page 112] Saturday June 6 Arrive at home at 3.20 AM. Not well to day do not go out [page 113] Wednesday June 10 Recd allotment from A.W. Proseus [page 114] Monday June 15 Visit at Dr. Spragnes this evening Charles Moody came to see me [page 115] Tuesday June 16 Start for camp at 2:30 A.M. take the cars at Shortsville [page 116] Wednesday June 17 Arrive in camp about 9 oclock find Hookers army has been or are here Andrus was here last Monday wish he could have staid till now [page 117] Sunday June 21 Rainy day Reg.t gone out to Bull Run with 2 days rations, not gone all day Heavy firing in two directions supposed to be fighting at Thoroughfare Gap [page 118] Monday June 22 Mail a letter fro Bartholomew + me for Johnson + one for my wife send a two Treas note no 28148 + 2 dol Columbia Rank no 5714 All quite in camp report of fight yesterday Union force victors capturing largely Heavy firing to the North west some think nearer North say Harpers Ferry [page 119] Tuesday June 23 Rumors of moving come very thick now orders to night to cook 3 days rations up all night [page 120] Wednesday June 24 Beautiful day the sixth Army Corps encamp side of us to night orders on dress parade to move to Thoroughfare Gap as soon as practicable (draw 3 days rations bread) to We are to be in the 2d Corps [page 121] Thursday June 25 Move out of camp march to Green springs to day [page 122] Friday June 26 March to + across Edwards Ferry [page 123] Saturday June 27 Rest to day [page 124] Sunday June 28 March to Sugarloaf mountain [page 125] Monday June 29 March from Frederick City Md to Union town to day distance 22 miles [page 126] Tuesday June 30 Mustered this morning P.M. march 3 or 4 miles [page 127] Wednesday July 1 Arrive at Gettysburg or near Stay within a short distance of Gettysburg to night [page 128] Thursday July 2 Battle to day make a charge on a battery or more properly to recover a battery of our own. In this charge Lieut Prosens is instantly killed + Armstrong + Bartholom wounded + Ed Prosens mortally wounded [page 129] Friday July 3 An awful battle to day our co loose 10 men killed 16 wounded 8 missing This day I shall never forget it seems to me [page 130] Saturday July 4 Some skirmishing to day a very heavy rain Vicksburgh surrendered to day thank God + take courage [page 131] Sunday July 5 March to day Out on pickett last night a very rainy time got wet through with every thing I had even my portfolio + __?__per This morning no signs of the Rebel Army to be seen they have gone during the night [page 132] Monday July 13 Lie in Hospital to day feel most miserable [page 133] Tuesday July 14 In Hospital to day at Tilghmanton removed to camp at Williamsport [page 134] Wednesday July 15 March from Williamsport near Harpers Ferry Had to call on the ambulance to get me through. My stomach will not stand the tramp + carry a gun [page 135] Thursday July 16 Go into camp this morning near Sandy Hook [page 136] Friday July 17 Received the appointment of Regimental clerk Johnson + I travel round to find some eatables [page 137] Saturday July 18 March through Harpers Ferry crossing the Potomac + Shenondoah + over the mountain Sam Fritz died to day in Hospital [page 138] Sunday July 19 March but little to day write to my wife very quite for a Sunday in the army + on the march move about 6 to 8 miles [page 139] Monday July 20 March abut 12 miles to day camp about a mile from Bloomfield It seems now we are bound for Warrenton [page 140] Tuesday July 21 Have been in camp all day close by Bloomfield in the London valley no marching buy a bottle of ink for 10 cts cheap no mails for several days send out quite a mail this morning [page 141] Wednesday July 22 Move this afternoon from our camping ground at Bloomfield to Ashbys Gap get there at 6 at night [page 142] Thursday July 23 Move from Ashbys Gap to Manassee Gap to day move as train guard to Markham from there over hill + through brush to a camp on a side hill somewhere current report that there is to an action near Front Royal [page 143] Friday July 24 This morning is cloudy + very foggy we lay on a side hill last night so steep that we could scarcely stay in bed, went to bed very sweaty + lay so warm that I am very faint this morning, feel very much used up nothing for breakfast hardly. Return through the Gap to Markham to day [page 144] Saturday July 25 March from Markham station to White Plains to day [page 145] Sunday July 26 March from White plains to Warrenton Junction to day are over marched 2 or 3 men are reported to have died from the heat + over exertion [page 146] Monday July 27 Remain in camp to day Get a large mail [page 147] Tuesday July 28 Heard to day that Sam Fritz died the 18th of July Remain in camp to day no particular news [page 148] Wednesday July 29 Have written to Georg Ostrander + finished a letter Hollis Johnson Remain in camp to day buy a paper but no exciting news I see a list of names of drafted men for the first time [page 149] Thursday July 30 Still encamped make out a requisition for clothing to day Garribaldi Sutter came to camp Gardner + Brown making out final statements I have written to Father to day At 5 oclock strike tents + march till to toward the Rappahannock who knows what for: is it strategy [page 150] Friday July 31 At 7 take up line of march again move about 4 to 5 miles + camp in the woods said to be about 5 miles from Kelly’s Ford Dress clothing to day I got one pair of pants one pair of shoes + one shirt no mail since leaving the Junc [page 151] Saturday August 1 Start at 6:30 on return march go the five miles that we came yesterday. Inspection ordered at five oclock this afternoon [page 152] Sunday August 2 Remain encamped to day all quiet I am thankful I hope rumors are plenty nothing creditable A good deal of satisfaction is expressed by the men at the result of the draft receive mail to day nothing for me An intensely hot day [page 153] Monday August 3 Remain one day more in camp a real comfort the weather is so extremely warm news of consequence for several boys no particular action in the Army any where so fare as we can learn Receive mail again to day nothing for me why is it [page 154] Tuesday August 4 No particular news to day not any excitement. The men in large numbers are complaining seriously Still extremely hot [page 155] Wednesday August 5 Was very unwell to day with an intense headache could neither sit up nor lie down in comfort. Take more quinine don’t see any good effects: it may be good Wish I could hear from home [page 156] Thursday August 6 Yet sick with a headache + very weak my eyes seem as though they would go out of my head The weather so hot too: the shelter tents are but little comfort A letter came for Hollis Johnson [page 157] Friday August 7 Some better to day so much that I sit up most of the day but my head is extremely sore + my body weak my appetite no where at all + my expiration most difficult [page 158] Saturday August 8 Have written to my wife to day + enclosed an Allotment No. 470 Am considerable better to day so I write a few words home not much strength + no breath easy more quinine had a rain last night that has been of great benefit [page 159] Sunday August 9 No news to day Capt Laing came back to day Recd a letter from my wife to day [page 160] Monday August 10 Do not feel much better the weather still continues very wet I wish something could be done for my stomach [page 161] Tuesday August 11 Hollis Johnson sends to his wife a letter containing allotment No 471 mailed to day have written to my wife again [page 162] Wednesday August 12 Moved camp about 2 miles nearer to Warrenton Junction nothing of interest transpiring no war news to excite [page 163] Friday August 14 Ostrander Milner + Hodgson came back to the Co. to day. Nice weather just breeze enough to be pleasant one year ago to day left my home wife + children to go as a soldier One who I kissed that morning in his sleep is gone where I shall never see him more in this world God grant that I may meet him in a better world I would be content had I the assurance that I might after leaving this world have a place even in the most remote corner of the Kingdom of Heaven + could see my wife + all my children mingling with the blest Spirits around the Throne of God singing his everlasting praises. [page 164] Saturday August 15 Johnson comes over to see me write a letter for him to his wife send forty five dollars in it 2 $20.oo U.S. Treasury notes + a five New York state bill My wife would that I could do more for you but my faculties do not admit at present of any thing extra from me I believe that I have done my duty to the Government + would be happy to be released from the service now on some fair + honorable terms [page 165] Monday August 17 Not feeling well to day Dr. gives me more quinine with something in it but it does not help as I need help [page 166] Tuesday August 18 Moved camp back to near our ground of a week ago near the batter: have been very unwell [page 167] Thursday August 20 In camp to day: laying on my back most of the time feeling very week + debilitated had some talk with the Colonel + Surgeon about my own prospects nothing definite One year ago to day was sworn into the Government Service for 2 years [page 168] Friday August 21 Mail a letter to my wife to day enclosing ten dollar received of the Sanitary Commission. The weather continues quite warm some reports of moving are in circulation in camp How can the Rebs keep up longer we do not see but we believe the hand of God is in this matter + we pray that we may have patience + fortitude to wait his appointed time. We want to see land made free + the hold of the oppresser broken One year ago 4 oclock this P.M. leave Auburn for the field [page 169] Saturday August 22 Hot + dry some thunder in the distance The news from Charleston the present scene of operations report progress. “God be pleased to give us success.” There is a report in the papers that the citizens of Richmond keep a guard around Jeff Davis to prevent his running away. A coward I am thinking Stories of French intrique in Mexico are abundant but are they not of the kind called sensational: not to be noticed. We are still hoping for the news of peace + the triumph of Freedom in our Country [page 170] Sunday, August 23, 1863 A very comfortable day made so by the brisk breeze that is stirring all quiet about camp to day Remember that one year ago to day we were marching through Baltimore + I looked around feeling some suspicious fears of the spirit that attached the first troops that passed along that way might be lurking around to attack us. I did not like the looks of the inhabitants. To day I believe Baltimore to be more truly loyal than N.Y. [page 171] Monday, August 24 Has been very warm day News comes of the ridding of Fort Sumter + the advance of Rosecrans to Chattanooga The Army of the Potomac seem to be resting + preparing for a final move Sergeant Mallory return to Co to day has been in Hospital since left Centreville. Have taken a very severe cold in my lungs again [page 172] Tuesday August 25 Another warm day with prospect of rain which we get heavy just at night. We haave just got some pole brushs down keeps us out of the mud Recd a letter from Harmon News paper confirms reports from Charleston Rumors of moving toward Hlix are afloat see no foundation [page 173] Wednesday August 26 Very cold night passed last cold + cloudy this morning with high wind. Have a hard cough + severe cold with some head ache. Sumter Fort is destroyed + Char must come down is the news to day. Rosecrans is bombarding Chattanooga Johnson in command of the Rebs. I doubt the last Army of the Potomac all quiet [page 174] Thursday August 27 Very warm day + sultry no more war news than confirmatory Ought perhaps to write to my wife to day think on the whole I’ll wait a day or two hope I may get a letter to night. Will she so far overcome her diffidence as to write a letter once a week, a good one would it not be a new era in living a blessing untold. If she could but realize the difference it would make with me she would certainly do it. [page 175] Friday, August 28 Another summer day has passed monotonously as usual in these sultry times. The most interesting items of the day is R Toombs of Georgia published address to his southern friends on the finances of the Confed It seems by his statement that they are on the verge of ruin from an over issue of paper currency. Commodities will rise or fall in proportion to the increase or diminution of money It seems by this article that the Rebs have issued an immense amount of currency without a shadow of a percent basis but assuming to create a basis in the future by taxes. The credulity of the people has been largely drawn upon to such an extent as to overstretch the bubble + now it is ready to bust [page 176] Saturday, August 9, 1863 Nothing at all to day no letter for me from any body this week [page 177] Sunday, August 30 To day is quiet + sabbeth like would try to be Thankful if I could be in Williamson + go to church with my wife to day I would the day was nigh at hand that this “Civil War is over” Wont it be a day of rejoicing + happiness [page 178] Monday, August 31 Write + mail letters for Johnson this morning to his wife + H. Mcfortis The Brigade go out at 7 this morning on a reconnoitering excursion expect to be gone 2 or 3 days No news to day of importance The weather is quite cool The men were mustered for pay before they started. Now let the money come no matter how soon [page 179] Friday, September 11, 1863 So much the month of September have been quite sick feel some better to day have a letter from my wife + one from Mr. Carter to answer [page 180] Saturday, September 12 Left the Regiment this morn for the Hospital at Washing Had a very uncomfortable ride dust very thick in the morn rain in the afternoon rettled it arrive at the Lincoln Hospital about 8 oclock in the evening feeling weak enough yet washed up + clean shirt + drawers + feel some better [page 181] Sunday, September 13 Find myself in Lincoln Hospital Ward 13 this day feeling miserable enough Osgood is with me Went to the chapel this P.M. + heard sermon I feel very tired + weary my diarrhea does not seem any better but have had no medicine yet the change of food may help me some How I want to hear from home [page 182] Monday, September 14 To day feel a little better I think I really don’t know. Have been to the Library + borrow a book + read it through ( Learn again that my systematic benevolence is true charity) Lord help me to practice true charity in accordance with they will + I pray that thou will help me to see + do what is just + right in my peculiar situation [page 183] Tuesday, September 15 Beautiful cool morning do not feel so well this day Have written a short letter to Gardner Is it not a part of life to teach ones children ourselves + why not by obtaining the latest works + urge our children to read them at the same time to question them of their reading [page 184] Wednesday, September 16, 1863 May the God of love + mercy watch over my country my Father + especially my wife + two little ones. Give me a speedy return home + above all give me strength + grace so to live an example for them of Christian love + fortitude that they cannot but imitate Oh Father in Heaven I pray Thee [page 185] Thursday, September 17 Myron H. force died last night. It seems strange very A very comfortable day: cool Have finished reading the “Ministry of Life” a first rate book: May its perceps long dwell in my heart for good for why should not we in our education cultivate ourselves with a love of God + his works in connection with the sciences. Let them all be blended. [page 186] Friday, September 18 To day is rainy but not cheerless God is here + he brings the rain for our good To day commence reading “Pleasant Pathways” the first chapter teaches me that this could alone confers no lasting true abiding happiness Recd of Harvey Heath eight dollars for Geo Ostrander to be forwarded to Miss Ruth E. Ostrander per order found on page -22 [page 187] Saturday, September 19 A very cold day I want some fire not a bit of news in the papers to day My diarrhea is much better but I am so cold I cant write [page 188] Sunday, September 20 Each man should think himself an act of God His mind a thought, his life a breath of God. And each should try, by great thoughts + good deeds To show the most of heaven he hath in him Nothing of interest transpiring to day very cold but towards night get a fire which makes much comfort [page 189] Monday, September 21 Still cold through not so intense the sun comes out clear Oh sun of righteousness warm up my heart, as the sun of the universe warms my body Mailed this morning a letter to my wife + one to Mrs. Johnson also one to Miss R.E. Ostrander containing eight dollars in Greenbacks a one two + five Have written a letter to Mr. Carter nothing of interest as yet to day [page 190] Tuesday, September 22 Herein is where I cried I thought to first pay my debts then try to be a Christian Now by the help of God I ll trust my all in Him + have faith knowing He will help me to pay to the uttermost farthing So let me pray every day for answer to help my faith + my duty to my fellowman Commence reading Young Mans Course sellor (written above Course) [page 191] Wednesday, September 23 Mail a letter to my old Friend William Carter Don’t I want to hear from my wife Have not heard much to day morn cold: the day quite warm: no particular news to day. To insure success through life The young man must possess Integrity that he may win public confidence Intelligence that he may command respect Industry that he may command the flowers of trade Economy + frugality to preserve his gains Energy by which to surmount obstacles Tact to enable him to adapt himself to the openings of Providence + to make him the man for the hour of opportunity [page 192] Thursday, September 24 And till the days go hurrying by with no marked change: thousands of wild rumors fill the air exciting the mind to intensity only to leave it enervated to a great degree by the reaction. “Who slew all these” will be the question that some “correspondents” will hardly know how to answer Rumors of a great action between Bragg + Rosecrans upon Sat. + Sunday last come with every breath. God help the cause of right + liberty is all we ask [page 193] Friday, September 25 It is claimed that all is well in the Southwest so may it be. And now comes the welcome report of the detention of the iron rams in England But best of all came yesterday a letter from my wife with good news from home: long a coming but none the less welcome for that I answered it immediately + mail this morning To night I am acting night watch in Ward 13 in favor to Pendergast The wind blows cold + mournful sounding of the coming of winters icy mantle + reminding us of the end of life + the shrouding of these mortals in deaths cold mantles. [page 194] Saturday, September 26 Feel as well as can expect to day no letters from anybody Am disappointed in not getting a pass this morning no news in the papers My reading to day urges Intelligence + Energy as necessities to success in life,s battle but both must be founded on the Christian religion. I have to call for help from on high to keep me any where near right [page 195] Sunday, September 27 Well I am miserable this morning. I had a pass to go in town yester afternoon but it only took me to the Central guard house Slept all the afternoon do not feel at all comfortable My diarrhea is more violent to day [page 196] Monday, September 28, 1863 Frost this morning: but a warm day feel very dull with a headache Received my descriptive list from the Captain of Co E came by mail Have been writing to my wife this afternoon, Not much to write Cannot read much to day I feel so dull + out of sorts Do wish the surgeons would send me home so I might get well + do something worth while [page 197] Tuesday, September 29 Continued for the weather Did not get a pass to day hope to get one to morrow. Have been reading the Widow Bedott papers but am not particularly pleased carried to far to be sure I think No very particular thought hope I fear is fickle help is so much need : will it come [page 198] Wednesday, Sept 30 Weather continued: cool + warm Recd a letter from Gardner to day Am souly disappointed to day did not get a pass as expected Am very hungry + nervous do not know what to do with self It is dull + seems as though my time was wasting Hope not entirely come take me out of this + if it can be with thy will + I can do some good yet let me go to my own [page 199] Thursday, October 1, 1863 Another month is commenced Shall it terminate in good: hopes improved or fully answered man made better This war ends This to me has been a day of disappointment no pass no letter so nothing, as could be desired And all to console: Man is born to disappointment. Why dont I hear from home what is the matter I fear ill [page 200] Friday, October 2 Went to the city to day Visit Smithsonian Institute + the Patent Office + run about to P.O. Treasury Gen Paymaster Reg’tal Pay master Very heavy rain flood the streets buy writing paper + stamps I would + must bring wife + Willie to visit Washington Received a good long letter from my Wife to night May God bless her [page 201] Saturday, October 3 Pleasant again to day do not feel well as usual to day in consequence of taking cold last night. Write to Gardner + Johnson to mail Mond morning Enclosed to Gardner 45 cts in stamps Have not read much to day feel so ill. [page 202] Sunday, October 4, 1863 Warm + beautiful quiet + lovely is the day It is the Sabbath Do not read much to day Write my wife: try to write a good letter My cold is no better + diarrhea much worse about as bad as ever No thoughts of improvement do I seem to have Is the day lost. I have occasion all the time to pray God help me to some purpose to improve my time + keep me from evil: for who knows better than I that “Satan finds mischief for idle hands to do [page 203] Monday, October 5, 1863 A cool clear day. Not so well Mrs Lincoln visits the Hospital + distributes grapes: of mine I save the seeds to plant. Mail a letter to wife + to Gardner + a paper to William I purpose to purchase a copy of the “Ministering children published by Carlton + Porter + take home when I go “tis more blessed to give than to receive: How shall I experience this Psalm 19th 9, 9, 10 [page 204] Tuesday, October 6 Long as I lived untilled this morn did I imagine a man could be charitable in deeds without money Oh god grant me wisdom that I may know what to do to best serve thee + do good to my fellow men Hoaryhead by Jacob Abbott Crocker + Brewster 47 Washington St Boston [page 205] Wednesday, October 7 Beautiful day Am not so well to day Diarrhea is much worse + lungs + throat are to sore to leave me in any comfort The pass has passed without anything transpiring worthy of note. No visit no nothing [page 206] Thursday, October 8 New Doctor takes charge to day name said to be Allen + he is just from “the front” + belongs to the 2 Corps a very pleasant looking man Write a letter to my boy William if my ideas are right I pray God to bless them to his good + not let him follow the example of his Father [page 207] Friday, October 9 Some what rainy + dull, cold + dreary. Nothing to write down for mem pay master came + paid 2 or 3 + suddenly left. Who knows why Ask the Chaplain for employment to day: get no encouragement would like to earn some thing either how can I. [page 208] Saturday, October 10 Nice comfortable day read some talk much + spend the afternoon drawing diagram spend eve converse on religion new to me idea. God is able to make a body for the soul of man that is to cast in neverending hell + still never be consumed. Universalism looks more shallow than ever. Can I do anything to root it out + stop its evil effects [page 209] Sunday, October 11 Morn Bright beautiful but cool + bracing. Oh, God let the light + warmth of thy love shine in our hearts + revive us as the sun of the universe warms + invigorates our physical natures We are dependent upon thee + wilt thou not have mercy + hear our petitions + grant our requests. Blessed is the man that maketh the Lord his trust; + respecteth not the proud. Surely he shall not be moved forever [page 210] Monday, October 12, 1863 The sky is bright + the day is fair Write to my wife to day + enclose a ten dollar greenback The Paymaster is around to day + settles up for one year past I receive seventeen dolls + 15 cts. A good many receive nothing. [page 211] Tuesday, October 13, 1863 Cold to day. Write to my Father Do not feel as well as usual Went to prayermeeting last night a good many out + much interest is expressed: in fact I was surprised to see so many there. There ought too; to be a houseful for there are men enough in the hospital [page 212] Wednesday, October 14 This is a good idea + I must remember Gods children are not distinguished from sinners by any visible signs of Heavenly favor Mail a letter to my wife + one to my Father this morning sent 10 dolls to my wife Do not [rest of page torn out!] [page 213] Thursday, October 15 Cloudy but warmer than usual Ohio + Penn are on the side of right, liberty, justice + Union Not so stirring a meeting last we as the evening before but it was good All that is wanting to help along to good results is the presence of the (torn) prayer + patience (rest of page torn out). [page 214] Sunday, October 18 All the earth rejoices in sunshine but me. Have written to my wife to day go to the Chapel services in the afternoon + to prayermeeting in the evening a good congregation at both. Am improving in health some for which I am thankful I believe All men are fools saith the wise man but some are more fools than others are they not. The more I see of Catholicism the more detestable it appears so silly + yet so tyrannical + overbearing. It might not be tolerated in our public institutions Text today Matthew 6 chap 6 verse Pray in secret subject [page 215] Monday, October 19 Raining like fun this morning rather dreary + cold. Have mailed a letter to wife in answer to hers of date 12th. May God bless her. The das been dreary till night Had a good meeting last night a good many out. Will the Lord bless us with his presence + cheer our drooping faith + prove that it was good for us to be here. [page 216] Tuesday, October 20 Beautiful day + warm Went into the city to day with Serg Fithian. Visit the Residents house some daguerrean Galleries + the Centre market. Get very tired. Notified that Mr. Osgood + self are detailed as night watch from + after this date in this ward. A good meeting last night house or seats well filled + active people present to testify by word + prayer to the cause of Christ Psalm 79. would that I could remember some of the verses + prayers in it [page 217] Wednesday, October 21 Another bright beautiful warm day for which ought to be thankful Have felt rather dull from being on duty last night as watch Had a good meeting last evening seems to me they grow better + better Will the result be a good + blessing to our souls. God be merciful to me a sinner [page 218] Thursday, October 22 Another day has gone with its beauty. I am yet left. Have I done any good this day. I do not know. Prayermeeting has to be adjourned on account of changes in rooms moving. No particular was news Meade is in consultation with the President Mail letters to wife + William enclosing 2 dollars. [page 219] Friday, October 23 The day has come + gone + all the men in the Ward are in their beds + I alone sit by my lamp to watch for good or ill Silence is supreme only as one or two disturb by their snoring To night all all excited with rumored preparations for going to New York State. Shall I forget this night. The meeting is still crowded out. [page 220] Saturday, October 24 Commenced raining about 12 last night + has continued without intermission. A new lot of patients came in last night from the 1st Corps mostly very dull day. I do not feel well food makes me feel sick [page 221] Sunday, October 25 Clear, cool day. Have recd a letter from Father news not good as I wish. His health is not settled + fir. Father in heaven spare him yet a little + bless me if thou canst. I have been quite unwell this afternoon my diarrhea is much worse to night I fear By carelessness have not been to meeting to day. Shame to me. [page 222] Monday, October 26 Capital October weather The Ohio + Wisconsin men go away to day it is said N.Y. go tomorrow I am very hungry: very indeed had for breakfast one bowl of cold coffee: no sugar or milk of consequence one plate of Irish stew cold as could be one slice of bread. Dinner 1 piece of cold, boiled beef 2 small cold, boiled potatoes + small amount of cabbage cold 1 piece of bread, cold water [page 223] Tuesday, October 27 Coldest day we have had. Have felt most miserable to day no war news of interest The State Agent has been here says we are to go by Thursday. Went to prayer meeting last night + it was good to be there. So I am going home but one thought troubles me. Shall I have enough courage to commence family prayer. Be pleased oh Father to help me or I fear I fail + thereby perish [page 224] Wednesday, October 28 Another miserable day for me diarrhea very sever. Hardly want to stir. Have slept a good deal. Making preparations to move, probably to morrow No letters yet why does not my wife write to me. Such cruelty must be wrong. Does she care for me the thought_______________(blank). [page 225] Thursday, October 29 Another beautiful day is gone + no letter for me. Have been getting ready to go to York State. Taken one pair of Drawers 95 cts 10 men from this Ward are to go from the whole hospital 270. I do not feel at all well 4 or 5 contrabands were in the meeting this evening talking first rate Fithian says. It is to bad I could not go lately will the good Father help me to do that which is right + pleasing in his sight. Lord be merciful to me a sinner [page 226] Friday, October 30 Leave Hospital to day for N.Y. but remain at the depot till night very tiresome waiting. Suffer much with pain. [page 227] Saturday, October 31 On the cars all day. Arrive at NY about 5 oclock [page 228] Sunday, November 1 In N.Y. to day till 2 P.M. then go by rail to Albany. This day my mind had been much occupied with the question of right in travelling on this day even to get home I do not know what to do. where to go or where to stay I know not. I wish I was out of the army my wife, I fears, not –understanding. [page 229] Monday, November 2, 1863 Arrive home to day at 1 P.M. find wife + children well + myself tired + hungry Home home: [page 230] Tuesday, November 3 Have been to election today + find many friendly greetings The Democrats say that the most of the Army is from their party but now they complain bitterly that they are allowed to come home to vote “On consistency .” [page 231] Wednesday, November 4 Help William dig + pick up potatoes to day. Think I have done to much to be good Do not know what is best for me to do Two days have gone + I fail of my resolutions there is no help nor hope for me I fear: must I be entirely cast out If Whosoever is ashamed of me of him will I be ashamed. [page 232] Thursday, November 5 Visit at Col Moodys to day had a good time Learn that Hollis has settled the Insurance by the receipt in full of all demands of five hundred dollars (rest of page torn out) [page 233] Friday, November 6 Wife goes to mill with 2 bus of wheat + 1 bush of Buckwhete William + I go to Mr. Browns to husk, but it soon rains so hard that we are all in the house. Are we sufficiently thankful that we have a house I fear not when I think of Wife + self. (rest of page torn out). [page 234] Saturday, November 7 Rainy day, finish husking our own corn. New York like the other Northern states has waked up + gone for the Union With a sad heart the day (rest of page torn out) [page 235] Thursday, November 26 Thanksgiving Day Go to church with family + eat roast turkey at home [page 236] Sunday, December 6 In the soldiers depot (NYS) came here last night am to go to the Hospital to morrow at 10 oclock ought to have gone to Rochester cant help it now. Please oh Lord help + watch over me. I did not mean to do wrong. My wife my poor wife how lonely you are Have services in the reading room Preaching by Rev. Dr Stone [page 237] Monday, December 7 Gone to Arrive at David,s Island at 10 oclock directed to pavilion one to abide Went to Broome St Church last eve first to young peoples Prayer meeting then to the usual services [page 238] Tuesday, December 8 Mail letters to day one to wife one to Isaac G. Gardner one to John Fithian Very cold but clear Hon Schuyler Colfax elected Speaker of the House of Representative by a good majority Repub. [page 239] Wednesday, December 9 Do not feel first best to day beautiful weather but very cold wind Last evening thanksgiving meeting in the chapel in accordance with the recommendation of the President No war news to day Surgeon notices me to day for the first time gives no orders however [page 240] Thursday, December 10 Slept very cold last night Most splendid morning the sun is so clear + bright Read the Presidents message + Proclamation to day + write to my Father + P K Armstrong according to Sec of War the draft of last summer furnish 50 00 men + ten millions of dollars [page 241] Tuesday, December 11 Still very cold but some cloudy snow towards night write to Brother Edwin very dull day Paymaster around but does me no good reported all not fit for duty will be sent home for the holidays I want to go home for a stay [page 242] Saturday, December 12 Snow on the ground this morn not very cold to day but 10 postage stamps Jeff Davis message in to days papers. The Monitor Weehawken sunk in a gale off Charleston harbor report in to days paper 30 lives lost Carlessness intimated. Quite a question in my mind whether to go in the Invalid Corps or not what will I have to do indoor or outdoor services is the idea if my hands were sound I would not care [page 243] Sunday, December 13 morn rain + high wind even cloudy + still went to chapel at 10.30 quite a number out. Write to my wife in the afternoon. The men are very quiet considering they are Soldiers + in the Hospital without much to do or attract attention. [page 244] Monday, December 14 Morning foggy + rainy Finish + mail a letter to my wife to day also a paper to Willie [page 245] Tuesday, December 15 Geo. W. Ostrander + I want to go home more than most can imagine what is the use of our staying here have I not done my part for my Country I suppose not or I should be dismissed. To much am I inclined to complain Is it best for me to go into the In corps 2 or 3 letters would settle the question with my mind I think without doubt [page 246] Wednesday, December 16 Time still flies swiftly but silently by + here I am still in Hospital; seems to me wasting time. What can I do. If this war would only come to an end or I could be discharged I would be suited next send me to a Regiment or give me some employment where I could be comfortable but to sit here dad after day subject to the whims of an Irish or Dutchman that cant see beyond the end of his nose is almost unendurable. I do wish I could get some letters from some body or somewhere. It is said N Carolina is about to send Commissioners to the General Government to treat for peace It would be a blessing if all the States would follow the example it would not [page 247] Thursday, December 17 Attended a lecture last evening by Rev Dr. McVean Subject Life in China illustrated by a chinese map of the World idols chopsticks incense ladies shoes books papers. A Soldier gets 5 cts a day boards + lodgers + clothes himself The whole object of life in china is Sons + money: daughters are a misfortune. Marriage takes place at the age of 16 or 18 yrs a fashionable dinner party occupied from 3 to 5 hours + there is placed upon the table from 25 to 40 different kinds of food. No women are allowed at the table Thank God that I was not born in China though there is more danger for me at the last than for him. [page 248] Friday, December 18 Rainy day yesterday + last night very hard with high winds Raining this morning, quite fast by spells not a letter have I had since I left home a fortnight ago. It is very wrong to use me thus is it not: how shall I know that all is well at home. Received a letter from my wife to day. A good one [page 249] Saturday, December 19 Cold + clear this morning A boat load of men went away yester I went to Chapel last evening a good discourse Subject Be diligent to make electing + elections sure but I cant see or understand foreordination how can it be so. Have been out carting pails this afternoon so cold that I suffer severely It is curious that men are put in places they are not fit for. Men who have no thought ahead [page 250] Sunday, December 20 Very cold this morning but clear get ready for inspection at 9 oclock Have been to church at 10.30 + 7.30 to Bible class at 3 P.M. The evening discourse was Honesty + well done just what is wanted at this time especially by Gov Contracts There may be some honest ones but where are they thats the question wouldnt it be well to bring the thing to the notice of them that furnish rations to this Hospital. [page 251] Monday, December 21, 1863 How cold the wind is Have help scrub the floor this forenoon Mail a letter to wife to day stroll out with George w. Ostrander this afternoon No war news to day of consequence very dull here at the best so it goes [page 252] Tuesday, December 22 Cold wind yet Ordered to be ready for duty but do nothing till after dinner.Then fill some beds with straw and bring them in Draw an overcoat to day Get from the library Wash Irvings Sketchbook [page 253] Wednesday, December 23 Cold windy weather Attended a lecture by Mr Mervin Chaplain U.S.A. Subject Elements of Power [page 254] Thursday, December 24 Cold wind with signs of snow but no snow Write to Gardner + also to Emery brothers Albany No war news to day but lots of foreign news. There seems a strong prospect of war between the Danes + Germans over the Schleswig Holstein matter [page 255] Friday, December 25 Christmas day is here clear, bright, cold, + beautiful. A merry christmas to my wife, boy + girl. God bless them 5.30 have been to church to day + been without dinner + had to much for supper. Soldiering well what a world this is beautiful warm quite unnatural for christmas. The chapel all (rest of page is torn out). [page 256] Saturday, December 26 O glorious day beautiful + charming bright + warm. The day has been spent in first assisting in cleaning the rooms then rambling about the Island with George W. Ostrander: the evening George + I spent in chattering together No war news to day in fact the papers are decidedly dull (rest of page torn out). [page 257] Sunday, December 27 Morning cloudy rainy + rather dreary a strong contrast to yester + day before Went to chapel at 10.30 A M subject + text What is life well delivered + interesting Again to chapel at 7.30 P.M. Subject our record for the past year the The day has been very mild have been writing some to my home + reading Irving’s Sketches [page 258] Monday, December 28, 1863 The last Monday of 1863 may be remembered as a very rainy day with pretty brisk wind-the early morning quite cold + freezing I have finished writing and mailed a letter to my wife to day if in reading it she gets my ideas in spirit it is written all will be happy. A good deal of the time spent in getting up a draught of my plan for ditching. [page 259] Tuesday, December 29 Quite mild + agreeable day spent in rambling + reading Henry Conine leaves to day on his way to the Regiment. No letters from any body Papers say the draft will proceed the 5th of next month. England agrees to stand by the Danes Napoleon’s congress fails The rebels are in much doubt [page 260] Wednesday, December 30, 1863 A nice beautiful day warm have been scrubbing this A.M. went to hear Dr. Bliss talk about the Syrians last eve a good thing He comes out strong for the Union + the flag of our country condemns + charges England with being perfidious I opposed to anything on this Continent but republican Gov’mt The Syrian domestic customs are precisely the reverse of ours they call the point of a needle or a pin the head because it goes first carry a cane by the small end do not think it best to educate women an ignorant woman is easier to manage than an educated one Received a letter from wife date Oct 20 [page 261] Thursday, December 31, 1863 The last day of 1863 cloudy but not very cold quite comfortable. Went to chapel yester afternoon heard 1 Quaker preacher women talk come unto me all ye that labour. Very earnest + affecting was their talk would that I could remember it all. [page 262] memoranda [page 263] memoranda Purchase book to take home see OCt. 5 [page 264] memoranda Larkspur seed for lice Cloves nutmeg cayenne pepper for condiments raisins soda Azumea cinnamons. Looking Glass Johnsons Watch + a head + key cord B F Wright Wacth of John Harmon Jr., Brown Capt Himnan 75 No 98 Lousiana Avenue Aerated Bread [page 265] back page Transcribed by: Joyce Hicks
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spelling	Holcomb, Edward Diary (1863)Holcomb, EdwardHolcomb, Edward; United States. Army. New York Infantry, 111th (1862-1865); United States--History--Civil War, 1861-1865History – 1838-1874: Sectionalism, the Civil War and Reconstruction; Peoples -- Military Life; Government and Politics -- MilitaryThe is the diary of Edward Holcomb who served with the 111th New York Infantry during the Civil War. It contains details of this common soldier’s life, January 1-December 31, 1863.Auburn University Libraries1863265 pagesTextPDFRG 0331This image is the property of the Auburn University Libraries and is intended for non-commercial use. Users of the image are asked to acknowledge the Auburn University Libraries. For information about obtaining high-resolution copies of this and other images in this collection, please contact the Auburn University Libraries Special Collections & Archives Department at archives@auburn.edu or (334) 844-1732.www.american-south.orghttp://content.lib.auburn.edu/u?/findingaids,326engEdward Holcomb DiaryAuburn University Libraries. Special Collections and Archives.[page 1] Thursday, January 1, 1863 In the army at the stockaded camp Vermont near Alexandria I think would like to be at home I want the book Out Self Made, or Out of the depths Mrs. E.D.E.N. Southworth [page 2] Friday, January 2, 1863 Seek first the Kingdom of God + his righteousness + all these things shall be added unto you [page 3] Saturday, January 3, 1863 Fear thou not; for I am with thee I will strengthen thee; yea I will help thee; Yea I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee [page 4] Monday, January 5, 1863 [text upside down] Names of men + officers Co. E. 111 Regm’t + N.Y. Vols July 24th 1863 Lieut. George Brown Sergt. J.G. Gardner Corp. Myron H. Force Corpls Edward L. Parsons Private Frank Bailard “ Henry Conine “ Myron Collins “ Daniel Grandin “ Edward S. Holcomb “ Leman H. Purchase “ John Bush “ Peter See “ Charles M. Sentell “ William Stacy “ William Segrist “ Christopher Synder [page 5] Sunday, January 4, 1863 [text upside down] Continued Private John H. Wortly Private Thomas J. Jenkins Private Daniel N. Cray [page 6] Tuesday, January 6, 1863 P.W. Kenyon Newark G.W. Ostrander Miss R.E. Ostrander [page 7] Thursday January 8, 1863 Why do I live by Rev. Thom Smyth A.T. Soc. [text upside down] Wounded in battle July 3 Myron Van Winkle Dwight Garlock Ayers Allen Bart Brown on skirmish since died Sergt. Thom Morris C. Bathlvn Armstrong Whittecher Devos E. Whitmore Rose Sentell Fritz Coons Harmon Gatesman Prosens [page 8] Friday January 9, 1863 Battle pin Louis Phillips 609 Broadway C Munro Brown 74 Bleeker B.G. Hayward 208 Broadway [text upside down] Killed in battle July 9 Sam B. De Con thr the temple D.D. Bartholomew by shell W.B. Barrnet A Van Valbenberg Matt Westbrook H. Roberts Will Whitmore Jim Griswold John Cripps Thomas Hawkins in skirmish [page 9] Sunday January 11 [text upside down] Alphabetical list of killed + wounded (on next page) Lieut Prosens Corp Barrnet “ Vanvalhenburgh Private Bartholomew “ Brown wound in skirmish Cripps De Con Griswold Hawkins Roberts Westbrook Wm Whitmore Ed Prosens mortally wounded [page 10] Saturday January 10 [text upside down] + wounded Serg Morris Rathbone Armstrong Privates Allen Ayers Coons Devos Fritz Gatesman Garlock Harmon Prosens_______ since died Sentell slightly Rose Van Winkle Whitbeck C. Whitmore [page 11] Tuesday January 13, 1863 Pork Cake 1lb salt pork chopped fine 1 teaspoonfull salt or 4 of soda Pour on 1 teacup of hot water cloves or cinnamon 1 qt of flour 2 cups of raisins 2 cups of sugar bake one hour or nearly 1 cup of molasses [text upside down] 2 officers 4 sergeants 3 corporals 39 men [page 12] Wednesday January 14, 1863 Gingerbread or Cookies 2 cup of molasses 8 tablespoonful of water 1 “ full of Alum dissolve 2 “ ginger 2 “ soda 4 “ butter or lard [page 13] Friday January 16 Joshua E. Fithian Co. G. 12th N Jersey Vols from Cedarville Cumberland Co. New Jersey [page 14] Saturday January 17 Lorenzo Ames 9th Michigan Battery Hudson Suwannee Co. Michigan [page 15] Sunday January 18 D.W. Fansher Sergt. Co. L. 5th Michigan Cavalry from Kalamazoo Michigan [page 16] Thursday January 22 [text upside down] E. S. Holcomb Go to Harvey Heath at Ward 7 Lincoln Hospital + get eight dollars + mail to my sister Ruth E. Ostrander Sep 12th 1863 Geo W Ostrand [page 17] Saturday January 24, 1863 Sact The power of self adaptation No every new opening of Providence strive to fill a new place with naturalness [page 18] Sunday January 25, 1863 “Go then, earthly fame + treasure; Come disaster scorn, + pain; In Thy service pain is pleasure, With thy favor los is gain. I have called thee, Abba, Father, I have set my heart on thee; Storms may howl, + clouds may gather All must work for good to me.” [page 19] Tuesday January 27 [text upside down] Sundries pd Sover @ Laing cash 8.00 Bacon 92 ½ @ 8 ½ Soverhill order [page 20] Saturday January 31 Extract from a Syrian Poem “Sometimes I weep alone to think that I have lost thy love forever---and then, oh!bitterly I weep to see thy mother’s furrowed brow—full well she feels the treasure lost---the yound child + the beautiful. I marvel not, angel, that thou art gone –for heaven were better fitted for thy home than earth; but I marvel that we can live yet awhile on earth –live without thy smile.” “And thou who couldn’t barely resist the cold---thy fate is hard—nor friend to whisper comfort nor careful eye to watch – in thy cold solitary, mysterious grave—none can give comfort. But how foolish! I speak to dust. Thy soul, thank God! Is far beyond the hurt of man or evil spirit.” [page 21] [note: the month February is marked through and 1863 changed to 1864, the marking through doesn’t last very long.] Friday January 1 1864 Morning very thick fog but warm Have finish a letter to wife to day or this morning Spend some time looking for shells for wife. No letter to day this evening name put down for a furlough no war news to day of interest the news from Southern news are very despondent [page 22] Saturday January 2, 1864 Bitter cold west wind no letters to day from wife a letter from Father no particular news have seen no paper to day help scrub the floor this morn went to H.d. qtrs. To report for furlough expect to go home soon say Monday wishing it was not so cold to day Why dont my wife write to me it is too bad something is the matter I fear. How can it be so [page 23] Sunday January 3, 1864 Cold windy day yesterday was the coldest of the season go to chapel this morning am not particularly please with Episcopal ceremonials very good congregation no sermon, it is communion day it is the general impression that we go home tomorrow afternoon, I hope it will be so To days paper says that the English at last have come to the conclusion that the south must give up + the southern paper see no further hope for them. Gold in the southern states is at an enormous premium 20 to 30 dollars for one dollar in gold Flour at $150 per barrel coffee $250 a lb sugar 9 [page 24] Monday January 4 1864 Cloudy this morning + not so cold as for 2 days past Names taken down for furlough [page 25] Tuesday January 5, 1864 Not quite so cold Times seems heavy I am so anxious about mine at home [page 26] Wednesday January 6, 1864 Quite comfortable to day the lecture was exceedingly poor last evening could not understand the speaker at all + then instead of Pneumatic S he tried to tell something about every thing connected with air + water Health ventilation + the lungs no letters yet what doe it mean [page 27] Thursday January 7, 1864 The mildest day for the last week spent the day in reading Coopers Deerslayer Feel quite down for want of news from home Geo. Ostrander starts for home this morning I expect to go to morrow [page 28] Friday January 8, 1864 Snowing this morning + has been snowing most all night Did not rest well although I got a furlough to go home for fifteen day + shall start immediately after dinner should have gone sooner but wait for letters from home but wait in vain This is cruel in deed Can it be_______[blank] [page 29] Wednesday February 11, 1863 Democrat One who adheres to a government by the people or favors the extension of the right of suffrage to all classes of men Democracy Government by the people. A form of government in which the supreme power is lodged in the hands of the people collectively [page 30] Thursday February 12 Republican One who favors or prefers a republican form of government Republic A commonwealth: a state in which the exercise of the sovereign power is lodged in representatives elected by the people. [page 31] [page 32] Sunday February 15 Drizzling rainy day no inspection [page 33] Monday February 16 Springlike beautiful day get a pass + start for Wash only go to Bark’s station mud is very deep [page 34] Tuesday February 17 Snow all day arrive in Washington about 10 oclock go to see some of the public buildings + see the Senate + Representative in session [page 35] Wednesday February 18 P K Armstrong Dr P.K. Armstrong Dr To memorandum 30 to paper + envelopes 70 C.F. Short Dr Proseno pd Dr To paper + envelopes 30 Bartholomew dru to Stamps 30 17 stamps Rainy day get back to camp just at night very tired + sore [page 36] Thursday February 19 In camp to day wet + sloppy received a letter from And sold most of my stuff right off to get the money I owe Bartholomew 400 He owes me for Express 30 “ “ “ washing 20 [page 37] Friday February 20 Sun shine out clear but the wind blows hard sent a letter to my wife to day with my allotment of 16 dolls hope she will get it gave Ben Strong 1 doll to buy postage stamps and 2 dolls for Barnett myself + others to pay for the Daily morning chronicle for 2 months Johnson has come in + brought some butter so bread + butter for his + my supper a rarity in deed [page 38] Saturday February 21 Quite a pleasant day Johnson left me this morn I wrote a letter for him nothing of interest to day [page 39] Sunday February 22 Snow all day + cold no one stirs out hardly saw the men only at meal times no war news Write a letter for Bartholomew to his wife ought to write to my own The day has been more like Sabbath than before in a long time [page 40] Monday February 23 Sun shines out warm + clear the snow melts some no particular news to day all seems very quiet Encouraging reports from the S.W. Should think the banking bill just passed a bill of great importance [page 41] Tuesday February 24 Very fine day rather cool although thawing some Co. draw 140 lbs. of Fresh beef this eve read in the Herald extracts from South papers they how terribly over the Europeans + Democrats [page 42] Thursday February 26 Bartholomew has had 5 stamps [page 43] Friday February 27 Enclose a five doll Treasury note No 2752 to my wife to day Bartholomew recd a letter from w no particular war news Barnett + I get our first paper Co draw 7 qts molasses a nice warm day [page 44] Sunday March 1 A beautiful day springlike high wind afternoon draw rations except beans write a letter for Barthol last night the long role was beat in anticipation of an attack false alarm Recd for soap grease 2.25 [page 45] Monday March 2 Cool fair weather no excitement to day all is quiet about here The order is read on dress parade I M. Lusk is appointed major [page 46] Tuesday March 3 Cool + fair + cloudy Thunder showers towards night Just at night Hollis Johnson comes he looks very bad ought to be discharge [page 47] Wednesday March 4, 1863 Have written a letter for Bartholomew + one for Johnson to mail this morn Johnson goes back to hospital at U Mills The sky is clear but it is very cold raw wind have beans for dinner draw 140 lbs beef to day Fresh Parsons + I bought 20 cts worth of meal [page 48] Thursday March 5,1863 An splendid day but last night was severely cold, could hardly keep warm a good deal of excitement to day reports of the rebel pickett + being in sight from our pickett lines It is very strange I do not hear from home [page 49] Saturday March 7, 1863 Loan J Teats 1 post stamp + 9 Envelopes + 2 envelopes a rainy day answer De Garno’s letter of Feb 16 [page 50] Sunday March 8, 1863 Bartholomew De to 2 stamp + cash 16 [page 51] Monday March 9, 1863 A clear fair, warm day beautiful last night oh how it rained this morn a party Rebs entered our lines + captured a General + 4 aids also took off about 30 horses + a wagon + some other property Emery Pratt is not expected to live till morning Have finished a letter to my wife this eve The left wing of our Reg,t came off picket this morn report 17 persons came from secessia to line on to be protected Lieut Marshall is under arrest for leaving his post to early in the morning [page 52] Tuesday March 10, 1863 Mail a letter to my with a 2 doll Tre note no. 34309 Bartholomew Dr. To molasses 5 Stamps 3 [page 53] Monday March 16 Sell soap grease 2.25 P K Armstrong Dr. .15 Rose Dr To letter paper 30 Molasses 5 Bartholomew Dr To molasses 5 Van In wager Dr Molasses 15 [page 54] Friday March 20 Signs of a storm Boys go out on picket the news from the North is more encouraging Copperheads will soon be along ways below par [page 55] Saturday March 21 Snowy day sloppy + drizzly draw rations refuse the beef 2 days rations receive a letter fro Johnson Mr. Mack of Ontario calls on this evening has seen Col.Andrus on his way to Washing has been home on a furlough [page 56] Sunday March 22 Nice warm spring day mud dries up fast Co inspection by commdants inspection of quarters by L.C. Smith [page 57] Monday March 23 Nice day spring like four men detailed to help the cook tent is stockaded a great help to me [page 58] Tuesday March 24 Cloudy to day the Regmts of our Brigade move up here near us from Union Mills the idea seems to be to strengthen this position No mail to day [page 59] Wednesday March 25 The past night has been rainy but the day is fine Current report this morning that a train of cavalry + bagge wagons have been seen over in rebeldom [page 60] Friday March 27 No morning news from Vicksburg: God help us [page 61] Saturday March 28 Very rainy day mail letter for H. Johnson [page 62] Sunday March 29 All 19 men 1 corp 1 serg gone out on pickett Two rebel ladies want to come through too go to N.Y. but don’t want to take the oath A fine day only a bitter cold wind. The men ordered to have all ready for a fight The rebels reported advancing upon us under Jackson + Stuart [page 63] Monday March 30 Beautiful day George Gatesman shot in the should last night by the picket a cowardly action Bartho got letter from Helen Last night a man shot in the ancle by Camp Guard of the 125 Reg must stop when halted to night haversacks ful also canteens ready for action a man shot in the leg by the guard; must stop when challenged [page 64] Tuesday March 31 Snowing like fun this morning paid Bartholomew 70 cts I now owe him three doll,s Tents owes me 1 stamp + 3 Envelopes I want to hear from home Report Evacuation of Richmond [page 65] Wednesday April 1 6 men + 1 sergeant on pickett wind a hurricane + cold not much wood hope the tent will stand the gale. Soup for dinner [page 66] Thursday April 2 Cold but clear High wind to night Refugees still keep coming telling hard things of Rebel I guess all signs of a battle here have blown over for the present the boys complain of battalion drill this P M [page 67] Friday April 3 A warm day nice + clear to day we read that all rebs caught with Union uniform are to be treated as spies It is reported the Paymaster is at the 125 camp [page 68] Saturday April 4 Johnson receives word that he must come home to attend to his Insurance Suit [page 69] Monday April 6 Curious weather no war news reliable. A report is in circulation that 2000 Rebs have crossed towards us at Thoroughfare Gap [page 70] Tuesday April 7 Johnson one stamp Ostrander one stamp [page 71] Wednesday April 8 Receive wife’s letter to day 22 March to 2 April George Gatesman came out to day G. Ostrander leave Hospital Receive for soap grease 2.25 [page 72] Thursday April 9 I want to send home by Johnson for some Nutmeg dried Fruit a vest pocket knife [page 73] Friday April 10 Windy but fine spend 5 cts for matches 5 (cts for ) sandpaper Beautiful weather [page 74] Saturday April 11 Ditro To day is General muster [page 75] Sunday April 12 Sold on acct of Co. C. 55 lbs coffee 15 cts per lb. Sold on account of Co. E 111 Regmt NY Dv 101 lbs of coffee at 15 cts per pound Sum total $15.15 Paid to Capt. Laing the Co fund recd this day [signed] J.A. Laing To morrow must be ready to take the field for active operations Recd letter from Harmon [page 76] Monday April 13 No movement to day drilling as usual Some fault found by D Garlock ________ let him come in cookhouse if he wants to A report comes to day that our folks have made a hole in fort Sumter [page 77] Tuesday April 14 Turned over to the Regimental Quartermaster 2 boxes of rice to by forwarded by supply train I suppose or am informed G Ostrander Gardner Armstrong Persons + I fill a box + march it Capt Laing It contains our surplus clothing A report some that Hooker has whipped the Rebs at Fredericksburg A most beautiful day report to night take Charleston [page 78] Wednesday April 15 How it rains rather cold No certainty of moving yet Lend Warriner cash Paid 10 cts Turned over to the Qr .Master I barrel rice weigh 244 lbs draw 2 ds rations Just this down for the heaviest of the season yet [page 79] Thursday April 16 Wet sloppy muddy cloudy warm Co E present their petition for a division of sugar + and cook because of my entertaining friends Dw Garlock Carey the paper but skedaddle [page 80] Friday April 17 Comfortable day Cloudy 9th Vermont Battery of 6 guns encamped to the right of us to day report says Hooker,s right wing is in sight. Also we are turned over to Hooker's Corps [page 81] Saturday April 18 Very comfortable day To night the orders transferring Gen Casey + placing Abercrombie over this division is read draw 3 days rations [page 82] Monday April 20 Very rainy a dull day no news of consequence [page 83] Tuesday April 21 Cloudy + cold mail 4 papers for my wife a letter to Andrus + a letter to Mrs Johnson Genl Hayes reviews the Brigade this afternoon Gardner under arrest to night for laughing on dress parade no letters from anybody [page 84] Wednesday April 22 Clear mild + beautiful Gardner still under arrest Ill quit cards [page 85] Thursday April 23 Geo Ostrander cre by loan of 4 Postage stamps Rainy day very so [page 86] Friday April 24 Rainy day very much so signed the pay roll to day Paid Bartholomew case $100 [page 87] Saturday April 25 Recd from the paymaster an Allotment No 657 + a ten dollar Treasury Note no 28946 which I send to my wife Received 4 months pay from U.S. Government Paid Bartholomew cash to balance 2.00 [page 88] Sunday April 26 No 28905 note sent by Johnson for Bartholomew Johnson starts fro home to day whether he goes or not Will go to Washington to day send by him a letter for self to wife Bartholomew to his wife short to his wife J.F. Robinson to his Father + a package for Armstrong to be sent by Express to North Pownall, Vt [page 89] Monday April 27 Rainy day [page 90] Tuesday April 28 I owe G Ostrander post stamps 11 cts I owe Bartholomew 4 Post stamps [page 91] Wednesday April 29 Cloudy + warm mailed a big letter to wife some excited to night over Geo Ost going to Ga Hous lend P K Armstrong cash 1.50 [page 92] Thursday April 30 P.K. Armstrong Dr to sundries 184 [page 93] Saturday May 2 Thus saith the lord: I am the Lord they God Fear me + keep my commands [page 94] Sunday May 3 Beautiful warm day went out to inspection to day the first since we came here but once writing to my wife much rather talk to her I am in hast to see the end of the war Orders to put up 3 days rations [page 95] Monday May 4 Mail a letter to wife to day an incident of the war not in papers yet. At the skirmish at Warrenton yester A capt of the 5 N.Y.C. took a reb prisoner + passing him to some of his men to take his arms from reb the prisoner shoots at the Capt wounding him in the face Capt immediately turns upon him with saber + nearly cuts Rebs head off at the first blow then attacks more rebs + kills two more instantly + wounds another [page 96] Tuesday May 5, 1863 Beautiful morning but heavy rain at night. Very exciting news from Hooper 4000 prisoners taken also a hard fight by the cavalry. Liet Co. Mcvickar of the 6 N.Y.C. is killed just at night comes the report by telegraph of the taking of Freder’gh with 40,000 prisoners hope it true Perhaps we begin to see the end Report to night Hooker capture 40000 prisoners + had possession of Freder [page 97] Wednesday May 6 Very rainy day want to hear from home have no word from there since a long time ago, only two letters a month seems pretty hard especially while soldiering I wish I was not so cross I do not feel so either, I do not want to be trouble Report to day that Hooker is repulsed + driven across the Rappak. Also Sigel’s Corps cut to pieces [page 98] Thursday May 7 Armstrong Dr 1.10 cts Report to day first that of same as yesterday but just after diner the President telegraphs that it is all false + that Hooker holds his position Ordered again to put in 3 days rations which was partially done Mail a letter to Andrus 3 papers to yf [page 99] Friday May 8 Armstrong paid me one dollar on acc [page 100] Saturday May 9 Beautiful day night has come but no word from home. Why do not they write am I forgotten [page 101] Sunday May 10 Write to my wife to as usual on Sunday no wood so not much to do go out to inspection [page 102] Monday May 11 Borrow of Bartholomew 3 stamps Armstrong pays me 2 dolls Recd wifes letter enclosing Willie her mothers of Frank [page 103] Tuesday May 12 I want to send home 8 cash + 12 postage stamps I will do it if I can get it [page 104] Wednesday May 13 To day intensely hot General review + inspection by General Hayes Rainy afternoon with heavy thunder [page 105] Thursday May 14 No war news to day The death of Stonewall Jackson is confirmed he died May 2d of amputation + Pneumonia The Regiment are throwing up entrenchments in front of the camp [page 106] Friday May 15, 1863 To night To night receive a letter from Brother Andrus: he is well + sends a good letter Fell disappointed in not getting one from my wife Trust + hope all are well at home. Father protect them. This is the 3d day the boys have worked upon the entrenchments commence at 5 this morning + work 4 hours. 3 work 4 hours commencing 4 in the P.M. [page 107] Sunday May 17 Bright beautiful warm day Inspection as usual this A.M. have written a letter to wife to day hope it will be happily received [page 108] Monday May 18 Who so findeth a wife finde Who so findeth a wife findeth a good thing + obtaineth favor of the Lord A man that had friends must show himself friendly: and there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother sent by mail to my wife a letter enclosing one Dollar Treasury note [page 109] Monday May 25 An Telegraph from the President to day says Vicksburg is taken [page 110] Thursday June 4 The first day have attempted to work since May 24 685 leave camp for home at 12:10 Expenses from Alexandria to Washington depot 30 to Baltimore 1.50 to Canandargna 6 85 to P [page 111] Friday June 5 Arrive at Elmira at 12 10 arrive at Canandargne 6:30 Hire a black with others for Palmyra 1.35 [page 112] Saturday June 6 Arrive at home at 3.20 AM. Not well to day do not go out [page 113] Wednesday June 10 Recd allotment from A.W. Proseus [page 114] Monday June 15 Visit at Dr. Spragnes this evening Charles Moody came to see me [page 115] Tuesday June 16 Start for camp at 2:30 A.M. take the cars at Shortsville [page 116] Wednesday June 17 Arrive in camp about 9 oclock find Hookers army has been or are here Andrus was here last Monday wish he could have staid till now [page 117] Sunday June 21 Rainy day Reg.t gone out to Bull Run with 2 days rations, not gone all day Heavy firing in two directions supposed to be fighting at Thoroughfare Gap [page 118] Monday June 22 Mail a letter fro Bartholomew + me for Johnson + one for my wife send a two Treas note no 28148 + 2 dol Columbia Rank no 5714 All quite in camp report of fight yesterday Union force victors capturing largely Heavy firing to the North west some think nearer North say Harpers Ferry [page 119] Tuesday June 23 Rumors of moving come very thick now orders to night to cook 3 days rations up all night [page 120] Wednesday June 24 Beautiful day the sixth Army Corps encamp side of us to night orders on dress parade to move to Thoroughfare Gap as soon as practicable (draw 3 days rations bread) to We are to be in the 2d Corps [page 121] Thursday June 25 Move out of camp march to Green springs to day [page 122] Friday June 26 March to + across Edwards Ferry [page 123] Saturday June 27 Rest to day [page 124] Sunday June 28 March to Sugarloaf mountain [page 125] Monday June 29 March from Frederick City Md to Union town to day distance 22 miles [page 126] Tuesday June 30 Mustered this morning P.M. march 3 or 4 miles [page 127] Wednesday July 1 Arrive at Gettysburg or near Stay within a short distance of Gettysburg to night [page 128] Thursday July 2 Battle to day make a charge on a battery or more properly to recover a battery of our own. In this charge Lieut Prosens is instantly killed + Armstrong + Bartholom wounded + Ed Prosens mortally wounded [page 129] Friday July 3 An awful battle to day our co loose 10 men killed 16 wounded 8 missing This day I shall never forget it seems to me [page 130] Saturday July 4 Some skirmishing to day a very heavy rain Vicksburgh surrendered to day thank God + take courage [page 131] Sunday July 5 March to day Out on pickett last night a very rainy time got wet through with every thing I had even my portfolio + __?__per This morning no signs of the Rebel Army to be seen they have gone during the night [page 132] Monday July 13 Lie in Hospital to day feel most miserable [page 133] Tuesday July 14 In Hospital to day at Tilghmanton removed to camp at Williamsport [page 134] Wednesday July 15 March from Williamsport near Harpers Ferry Had to call on the ambulance to get me through. My stomach will not stand the tramp + carry a gun [page 135] Thursday July 16 Go into camp this morning near Sandy Hook [page 136] Friday July 17 Received the appointment of Regimental clerk Johnson + I travel round to find some eatables [page 137] Saturday July 18 March through Harpers Ferry crossing the Potomac + Shenondoah + over the mountain Sam Fritz died to day in Hospital [page 138] Sunday July 19 March but little to day write to my wife very quite for a Sunday in the army + on the march move about 6 to 8 miles [page 139] Monday July 20 March abut 12 miles to day camp about a mile from Bloomfield It seems now we are bound for Warrenton [page 140] Tuesday July 21 Have been in camp all day close by Bloomfield in the London valley no marching buy a bottle of ink for 10 cts cheap no mails for several days send out quite a mail this morning [page 141] Wednesday July 22 Move this afternoon from our camping ground at Bloomfield to Ashbys Gap get there at 6 at night [page 142] Thursday July 23 Move from Ashbys Gap to Manassee Gap to day move as train guard to Markham from there over hill + through brush to a camp on a side hill somewhere current report that there is to an action near Front Royal [page 143] Friday July 24 This morning is cloudy + very foggy we lay on a side hill last night so steep that we could scarcely stay in bed, went to bed very sweaty + lay so warm that I am very faint this morning, feel very much used up nothing for breakfast hardly. Return through the Gap to Markham to day [page 144] Saturday July 25 March from Markham station to White Plains to day [page 145] Sunday July 26 March from White plains to Warrenton Junction to day are over marched 2 or 3 men are reported to have died from the heat + over exertion [page 146] Monday July 27 Remain in camp to day Get a large mail [page 147] Tuesday July 28 Heard to day that Sam Fritz died the 18th of July Remain in camp to day no particular news [page 148] Wednesday July 29 Have written to Georg Ostrander + finished a letter Hollis Johnson Remain in camp to day buy a paper but no exciting news I see a list of names of drafted men for the first time [page 149] Thursday July 30 Still encamped make out a requisition for clothing to day Garribaldi Sutter came to camp Gardner + Brown making out final statements I have written to Father to day At 5 oclock strike tents + march till to toward the Rappahannock who knows what for: is it strategy [page 150] Friday July 31 At 7 take up line of march again move about 4 to 5 miles + camp in the woods said to be about 5 miles from Kelly’s Ford Dress clothing to day I got one pair of pants one pair of shoes + one shirt no mail since leaving the Junc [page 151] Saturday August 1 Start at 6:30 on return march go the five miles that we came yesterday. Inspection ordered at five oclock this afternoon [page 152] Sunday August 2 Remain encamped to day all quiet I am thankful I hope rumors are plenty nothing creditable A good deal of satisfaction is expressed by the men at the result of the draft receive mail to day nothing for me An intensely hot day [page 153] Monday August 3 Remain one day more in camp a real comfort the weather is so extremely warm news of consequence for several boys no particular action in the Army any where so fare as we can learn Receive mail again to day nothing for me why is it [page 154] Tuesday August 4 No particular news to day not any excitement. The men in large numbers are complaining seriously Still extremely hot [page 155] Wednesday August 5 Was very unwell to day with an intense headache could neither sit up nor lie down in comfort. Take more quinine don’t see any good effects: it may be good Wish I could hear from home [page 156] Thursday August 6 Yet sick with a headache + very weak my eyes seem as though they would go out of my head The weather so hot too: the shelter tents are but little comfort A letter came for Hollis Johnson [page 157] Friday August 7 Some better to day so much that I sit up most of the day but my head is extremely sore + my body weak my appetite no where at all + my expiration most difficult [page 158] Saturday August 8 Have written to my wife to day + enclosed an Allotment No. 470 Am considerable better to day so I write a few words home not much strength + no breath easy more quinine had a rain last night that has been of great benefit [page 159] Sunday August 9 No news to day Capt Laing came back to day Recd a letter from my wife to day [page 160] Monday August 10 Do not feel much better the weather still continues very wet I wish something could be done for my stomach [page 161] Tuesday August 11 Hollis Johnson sends to his wife a letter containing allotment No 471 mailed to day have written to my wife again [page 162] Wednesday August 12 Moved camp about 2 miles nearer to Warrenton Junction nothing of interest transpiring no war news to excite [page 163] Friday August 14 Ostrander Milner + Hodgson came back to the Co. to day. Nice weather just breeze enough to be pleasant one year ago to day left my home wife + children to go as a soldier One who I kissed that morning in his sleep is gone where I shall never see him more in this world God grant that I may meet him in a better world I would be content had I the assurance that I might after leaving this world have a place even in the most remote corner of the Kingdom of Heaven + could see my wife + all my children mingling with the blest Spirits around the Throne of God singing his everlasting praises. [page 164] Saturday August 15 Johnson comes over to see me write a letter for him to his wife send forty five dollars in it 2 $20.oo U.S. Treasury notes + a five New York state bill My wife would that I could do more for you but my faculties do not admit at present of any thing extra from me I believe that I have done my duty to the Government + would be happy to be released from the service now on some fair + honorable terms [page 165] Monday August 17 Not feeling well to day Dr. gives me more quinine with something in it but it does not help as I need help [page 166] Tuesday August 18 Moved camp back to near our ground of a week ago near the batter: have been very unwell [page 167] Thursday August 20 In camp to day: laying on my back most of the time feeling very week + debilitated had some talk with the Colonel + Surgeon about my own prospects nothing definite One year ago to day was sworn into the Government Service for 2 years [page 168] Friday August 21 Mail a letter to my wife to day enclosing ten dollar received of the Sanitary Commission. The weather continues quite warm some reports of moving are in circulation in camp How can the Rebs keep up longer we do not see but we believe the hand of God is in this matter + we pray that we may have patience + fortitude to wait his appointed time. We want to see land made free + the hold of the oppresser broken One year ago 4 oclock this P.M. leave Auburn for the field [page 169] Saturday August 22 Hot + dry some thunder in the distance The news from Charleston the present scene of operations report progress. “God be pleased to give us success.” There is a report in the papers that the citizens of Richmond keep a guard around Jeff Davis to prevent his running away. A coward I am thinking Stories of French intrique in Mexico are abundant but are they not of the kind called sensational: not to be noticed. We are still hoping for the news of peace + the triumph of Freedom in our Country [page 170] Sunday, August 23, 1863 A very comfortable day made so by the brisk breeze that is stirring all quiet about camp to day Remember that one year ago to day we were marching through Baltimore + I looked around feeling some suspicious fears of the spirit that attached the first troops that passed along that way might be lurking around to attack us. I did not like the looks of the inhabitants. To day I believe Baltimore to be more truly loyal than N.Y. [page 171] Monday, August 24 Has been very warm day News comes of the ridding of Fort Sumter + the advance of Rosecrans to Chattanooga The Army of the Potomac seem to be resting + preparing for a final move Sergeant Mallory return to Co to day has been in Hospital since left Centreville. Have taken a very severe cold in my lungs again [page 172] Tuesday August 25 Another warm day with prospect of rain which we get heavy just at night. We haave just got some pole brushs down keeps us out of the mud Recd a letter from Harmon News paper confirms reports from Charleston Rumors of moving toward Hlix are afloat see no foundation [page 173] Wednesday August 26 Very cold night passed last cold + cloudy this morning with high wind. Have a hard cough + severe cold with some head ache. Sumter Fort is destroyed + Char must come down is the news to day. Rosecrans is bombarding Chattanooga Johnson in command of the Rebs. I doubt the last Army of the Potomac all quiet [page 174] Thursday August 27 Very warm day + sultry no more war news than confirmatory Ought perhaps to write to my wife to day think on the whole I’ll wait a day or two hope I may get a letter to night. Will she so far overcome her diffidence as to write a letter once a week, a good one would it not be a new era in living a blessing untold. If she could but realize the difference it would make with me she would certainly do it. [page 175] Friday, August 28 Another summer day has passed monotonously as usual in these sultry times. The most interesting items of the day is R Toombs of Georgia published address to his southern friends on the finances of the Confed It seems by his statement that they are on the verge of ruin from an over issue of paper currency. Commodities will rise or fall in proportion to the increase or diminution of money It seems by this article that the Rebs have issued an immense amount of currency without a shadow of a percent basis but assuming to create a basis in the future by taxes. The credulity of the people has been largely drawn upon to such an extent as to overstretch the bubble + now it is ready to bust [page 176] Saturday, August 9, 1863 Nothing at all to day no letter for me from any body this week [page 177] Sunday, August 30 To day is quiet + sabbeth like would try to be Thankful if I could be in Williamson + go to church with my wife to day I would the day was nigh at hand that this “Civil War is over” Wont it be a day of rejoicing + happiness [page 178] Monday, August 31 Write + mail letters for Johnson this morning to his wife + H. Mcfortis The Brigade go out at 7 this morning on a reconnoitering excursion expect to be gone 2 or 3 days No news to day of importance The weather is quite cool The men were mustered for pay before they started. Now let the money come no matter how soon [page 179] Friday, September 11, 1863 So much the month of September have been quite sick feel some better to day have a letter from my wife + one from Mr. Carter to answer [page 180] Saturday, September 12 Left the Regiment this morn for the Hospital at Washing Had a very uncomfortable ride dust very thick in the morn rain in the afternoon rettled it arrive at the Lincoln Hospital about 8 oclock in the evening feeling weak enough yet washed up + clean shirt + drawers + feel some better [page 181] Sunday, September 13 Find myself in Lincoln Hospital Ward 13 this day feeling miserable enough Osgood is with me Went to the chapel this P.M. + heard sermon I feel very tired + weary my diarrhea does not seem any better but have had no medicine yet the change of food may help me some How I want to hear from home [page 182] Monday, September 14 To day feel a little better I think I really don’t know. Have been to the Library + borrow a book + read it through ( Learn again that my systematic benevolence is true charity) Lord help me to practice true charity in accordance with they will + I pray that thou will help me to see + do what is just + right in my peculiar situation [page 183] Tuesday, September 15 Beautiful cool morning do not feel so well this day Have written a short letter to Gardner Is it not a part of life to teach ones children ourselves + why not by obtaining the latest works + urge our children to read them at the same time to question them of their reading [page 184] Wednesday, September 16, 1863 May the God of love + mercy watch over my country my Father + especially my wife + two little ones. Give me a speedy return home + above all give me strength + grace so to live an example for them of Christian love + fortitude that they cannot but imitate Oh Father in Heaven I pray Thee [page 185] Thursday, September 17 Myron H. force died last night. It seems strange very A very comfortable day: cool Have finished reading the “Ministry of Life” a first rate book: May its perceps long dwell in my heart for good for why should not we in our education cultivate ourselves with a love of God + his works in connection with the sciences. Let them all be blended. [page 186] Friday, September 18 To day is rainy but not cheerless God is here + he brings the rain for our good To day commence reading “Pleasant Pathways” the first chapter teaches me that this could alone confers no lasting true abiding happiness Recd of Harvey Heath eight dollars for Geo Ostrander to be forwarded to Miss Ruth E. Ostrander per order found on page -22 [page 187] Saturday, September 19 A very cold day I want some fire not a bit of news in the papers to day My diarrhea is much better but I am so cold I cant write [page 188] Sunday, September 20 Each man should think himself an act of God His mind a thought, his life a breath of God. And each should try, by great thoughts + good deeds To show the most of heaven he hath in him Nothing of interest transpiring to day very cold but towards night get a fire which makes much comfort [page 189] Monday, September 21 Still cold through not so intense the sun comes out clear Oh sun of righteousness warm up my heart, as the sun of the universe warms my body Mailed this morning a letter to my wife + one to Mrs. Johnson also one to Miss R.E. Ostrander containing eight dollars in Greenbacks a one two + five Have written a letter to Mr. Carter nothing of interest as yet to day [page 190] Tuesday, September 22 Herein is where I cried I thought to first pay my debts then try to be a Christian Now by the help of God I ll trust my all in Him + have faith knowing He will help me to pay to the uttermost farthing So let me pray every day for answer to help my faith + my duty to my fellowman Commence reading Young Mans Course sellor (written above Course) [page 191] Wednesday, September 23 Mail a letter to my old Friend William Carter Don’t I want to hear from my wife Have not heard much to day morn cold: the day quite warm: no particular news to day. To insure success through life The young man must possess Integrity that he may win public confidence Intelligence that he may command respect Industry that he may command the flowers of trade Economy + frugality to preserve his gains Energy by which to surmount obstacles Tact to enable him to adapt himself to the openings of Providence + to make him the man for the hour of opportunity [page 192] Thursday, September 24 And till the days go hurrying by with no marked change: thousands of wild rumors fill the air exciting the mind to intensity only to leave it enervated to a great degree by the reaction. “Who slew all these” will be the question that some “correspondents” will hardly know how to answer Rumors of a great action between Bragg + Rosecrans upon Sat. + Sunday last come with every breath. God help the cause of right + liberty is all we ask [page 193] Friday, September 25 It is claimed that all is well in the Southwest so may it be. And now comes the welcome report of the detention of the iron rams in England But best of all came yesterday a letter from my wife with good news from home: long a coming but none the less welcome for that I answered it immediately + mail this morning To night I am acting night watch in Ward 13 in favor to Pendergast The wind blows cold + mournful sounding of the coming of winters icy mantle + reminding us of the end of life + the shrouding of these mortals in deaths cold mantles. [page 194] Saturday, September 26 Feel as well as can expect to day no letters from anybody Am disappointed in not getting a pass this morning no news in the papers My reading to day urges Intelligence + Energy as necessities to success in life,s battle but both must be founded on the Christian religion. I have to call for help from on high to keep me any where near right [page 195] Sunday, September 27 Well I am miserable this morning. I had a pass to go in town yester afternoon but it only took me to the Central guard house Slept all the afternoon do not feel at all comfortable My diarrhea is more violent to day [page 196] Monday, September 28, 1863 Frost this morning: but a warm day feel very dull with a headache Received my descriptive list from the Captain of Co E came by mail Have been writing to my wife this afternoon, Not much to write Cannot read much to day I feel so dull + out of sorts Do wish the surgeons would send me home so I might get well + do something worth while [page 197] Tuesday, September 29 Continued for the weather Did not get a pass to day hope to get one to morrow. Have been reading the Widow Bedott papers but am not particularly pleased carried to far to be sure I think No very particular thought hope I fear is fickle help is so much need : will it come [page 198] Wednesday, Sept 30 Weather continued: cool + warm Recd a letter from Gardner to day Am souly disappointed to day did not get a pass as expected Am very hungry + nervous do not know what to do with self It is dull + seems as though my time was wasting Hope not entirely come take me out of this + if it can be with thy will + I can do some good yet let me go to my own [page 199] Thursday, October 1, 1863 Another month is commenced Shall it terminate in good: hopes improved or fully answered man made better This war ends This to me has been a day of disappointment no pass no letter so nothing, as could be desired And all to console: Man is born to disappointment. Why dont I hear from home what is the matter I fear ill [page 200] Friday, October 2 Went to the city to day Visit Smithsonian Institute + the Patent Office + run about to P.O. Treasury Gen Paymaster Reg’tal Pay master Very heavy rain flood the streets buy writing paper + stamps I would + must bring wife + Willie to visit Washington Received a good long letter from my Wife to night May God bless her [page 201] Saturday, October 3 Pleasant again to day do not feel well as usual to day in consequence of taking cold last night. Write to Gardner + Johnson to mail Mond morning Enclosed to Gardner 45 cts in stamps Have not read much to day feel so ill. [page 202] Sunday, October 4, 1863 Warm + beautiful quiet + lovely is the day It is the Sabbath Do not read much to day Write my wife: try to write a good letter My cold is no better + diarrhea much worse about as bad as ever No thoughts of improvement do I seem to have Is the day lost. I have occasion all the time to pray God help me to some purpose to improve my time + keep me from evil: for who knows better than I that “Satan finds mischief for idle hands to do [page 203] Monday, October 5, 1863 A cool clear day. Not so well Mrs Lincoln visits the Hospital + distributes grapes: of mine I save the seeds to plant. Mail a letter to wife + to Gardner + a paper to William I purpose to purchase a copy of the “Ministering children published by Carlton + Porter + take home when I go “tis more blessed to give than to receive: How shall I experience this Psalm 19th 9, 9, 10 [page 204] Tuesday, October 6 Long as I lived untilled this morn did I imagine a man could be charitable in deeds without money Oh god grant me wisdom that I may know what to do to best serve thee + do good to my fellow men Hoaryhead by Jacob Abbott Crocker + Brewster 47 Washington St Boston [page 205] Wednesday, October 7 Beautiful day Am not so well to day Diarrhea is much worse + lungs + throat are to sore to leave me in any comfort The pass has passed without anything transpiring worthy of note. No visit no nothing [page 206] Thursday, October 8 New Doctor takes charge to day name said to be Allen + he is just from “the front” + belongs to the 2 Corps a very pleasant looking man Write a letter to my boy William if my ideas are right I pray God to bless them to his good + not let him follow the example of his Father [page 207] Friday, October 9 Some what rainy + dull, cold + dreary. Nothing to write down for mem pay master came + paid 2 or 3 + suddenly left. Who knows why Ask the Chaplain for employment to day: get no encouragement would like to earn some thing either how can I. [page 208] Saturday, October 10 Nice comfortable day read some talk much + spend the afternoon drawing diagram spend eve converse on religion new to me idea. God is able to make a body for the soul of man that is to cast in neverending hell + still never be consumed. Universalism looks more shallow than ever. Can I do anything to root it out + stop its evil effects [page 209] Sunday, October 11 Morn Bright beautiful but cool + bracing. Oh, God let the light + warmth of thy love shine in our hearts + revive us as the sun of the universe warms + invigorates our physical natures We are dependent upon thee + wilt thou not have mercy + hear our petitions + grant our requests. Blessed is the man that maketh the Lord his trust; + respecteth not the proud. Surely he shall not be moved forever [page 210] Monday, October 12, 1863 The sky is bright + the day is fair Write to my wife to day + enclose a ten dollar greenback The Paymaster is around to day + settles up for one year past I receive seventeen dolls + 15 cts. A good many receive nothing. [page 211] Tuesday, October 13, 1863 Cold to day. Write to my Father Do not feel as well as usual Went to prayermeeting last night a good many out + much interest is expressed: in fact I was surprised to see so many there. There ought too; to be a houseful for there are men enough in the hospital [page 212] Wednesday, October 14 This is a good idea + I must remember Gods children are not distinguished from sinners by any visible signs of Heavenly favor Mail a letter to my wife + one to my Father this morning sent 10 dolls to my wife Do not [rest of page torn out!] [page 213] Thursday, October 15 Cloudy but warmer than usual Ohio + Penn are on the side of right, liberty, justice + Union Not so stirring a meeting last we as the evening before but it was good All that is wanting to help along to good results is the presence of the (torn) prayer + patience (rest of page torn out). [page 214] Sunday, October 18 All the earth rejoices in sunshine but me. Have written to my wife to day go to the Chapel services in the afternoon + to prayermeeting in the evening a good congregation at both. Am improving in health some for which I am thankful I believe All men are fools saith the wise man but some are more fools than others are they not. The more I see of Catholicism the more detestable it appears so silly + yet so tyrannical + overbearing. It might not be tolerated in our public institutions Text today Matthew 6 chap 6 verse Pray in secret subject [page 215] Monday, October 19 Raining like fun this morning rather dreary + cold. Have mailed a letter to wife in answer to hers of date 12th. May God bless her. The das been dreary till night Had a good meeting last night a good many out. Will the Lord bless us with his presence + cheer our drooping faith + prove that it was good for us to be here. [page 216] Tuesday, October 20 Beautiful day + warm Went into the city to day with Serg Fithian. Visit the Residents house some daguerrean Galleries + the Centre market. Get very tired. Notified that Mr. Osgood + self are detailed as night watch from + after this date in this ward. A good meeting last night house or seats well filled + active people present to testify by word + prayer to the cause of Christ Psalm 79. would that I could remember some of the verses + prayers in it [page 217] Wednesday, October 21 Another bright beautiful warm day for which ought to be thankful Have felt rather dull from being on duty last night as watch Had a good meeting last evening seems to me they grow better + better Will the result be a good + blessing to our souls. God be merciful to me a sinner [page 218] Thursday, October 22 Another day has gone with its beauty. I am yet left. Have I done any good this day. I do not know. Prayermeeting has to be adjourned on account of changes in rooms moving. No particular was news Meade is in consultation with the President Mail letters to wife + William enclosing 2 dollars. [page 219] Friday, October 23 The day has come + gone + all the men in the Ward are in their beds + I alone sit by my lamp to watch for good or ill Silence is supreme only as one or two disturb by their snoring To night all all excited with rumored preparations for going to New York State. Shall I forget this night. The meeting is still crowded out. [page 220] Saturday, October 24 Commenced raining about 12 last night + has continued without intermission. A new lot of patients came in last night from the 1st Corps mostly very dull day. I do not feel well food makes me feel sick [page 221] Sunday, October 25 Clear, cool day. Have recd a letter from Father news not good as I wish. His health is not settled + fir. Father in heaven spare him yet a little + bless me if thou canst. I have been quite unwell this afternoon my diarrhea is much worse to night I fear By carelessness have not been to meeting to day. Shame to me. [page 222] Monday, October 26 Capital October weather The Ohio + Wisconsin men go away to day it is said N.Y. go tomorrow I am very hungry: very indeed had for breakfast one bowl of cold coffee: no sugar or milk of consequence one plate of Irish stew cold as could be one slice of bread. Dinner 1 piece of cold, boiled beef 2 small cold, boiled potatoes + small amount of cabbage cold 1 piece of bread, cold water [page 223] Tuesday, October 27 Coldest day we have had. Have felt most miserable to day no war news of interest The State Agent has been here says we are to go by Thursday. Went to prayer meeting last night + it was good to be there. So I am going home but one thought troubles me. Shall I have enough courage to commence family prayer. Be pleased oh Father to help me or I fear I fail + thereby perish [page 224] Wednesday, October 28 Another miserable day for me diarrhea very sever. Hardly want to stir. Have slept a good deal. Making preparations to move, probably to morrow No letters yet why does not my wife write to me. Such cruelty must be wrong. Does she care for me the thought_______________(blank). [page 225] Thursday, October 29 Another beautiful day is gone + no letter for me. Have been getting ready to go to York State. Taken one pair of Drawers 95 cts 10 men from this Ward are to go from the whole hospital 270. I do not feel at all well 4 or 5 contrabands were in the meeting this evening talking first rate Fithian says. It is to bad I could not go lately will the good Father help me to do that which is right + pleasing in his sight. Lord be merciful to me a sinner [page 226] Friday, October 30 Leave Hospital to day for N.Y. but remain at the depot till night very tiresome waiting. Suffer much with pain. [page 227] Saturday, October 31 On the cars all day. Arrive at NY about 5 oclock [page 228] Sunday, November 1 In N.Y. to day till 2 P.M. then go by rail to Albany. This day my mind had been much occupied with the question of right in travelling on this day even to get home I do not know what to do. where to go or where to stay I know not. I wish I was out of the army my wife, I fears, not –understanding. [page 229] Monday, November 2, 1863 Arrive home to day at 1 P.M. find wife + children well + myself tired + hungry Home home: [page 230] Tuesday, November 3 Have been to election today + find many friendly greetings The Democrats say that the most of the Army is from their party but now they complain bitterly that they are allowed to come home to vote “On consistency .” [page 231] Wednesday, November 4 Help William dig + pick up potatoes to day. Think I have done to much to be good Do not know what is best for me to do Two days have gone + I fail of my resolutions there is no help nor hope for me I fear: must I be entirely cast out If Whosoever is ashamed of me of him will I be ashamed. [page 232] Thursday, November 5 Visit at Col Moodys to day had a good time Learn that Hollis has settled the Insurance by the receipt in full of all demands of five hundred dollars (rest of page torn out) [page 233] Friday, November 6 Wife goes to mill with 2 bus of wheat + 1 bush of Buckwhete William + I go to Mr. Browns to husk, but it soon rains so hard that we are all in the house. Are we sufficiently thankful that we have a house I fear not when I think of Wife + self. (rest of page torn out). [page 234] Saturday, November 7 Rainy day, finish husking our own corn. New York like the other Northern states has waked up + gone for the Union With a sad heart the day (rest of page torn out) [page 235] Thursday, November 26 Thanksgiving Day Go to church with family + eat roast turkey at home [page 236] Sunday, December 6 In the soldiers depot (NYS) came here last night am to go to the Hospital to morrow at 10 oclock ought to have gone to Rochester cant help it now. Please oh Lord help + watch over me. I did not mean to do wrong. My wife my poor wife how lonely you are Have services in the reading room Preaching by Rev. Dr Stone [page 237] Monday, December 7 Gone to Arrive at David,s Island at 10 oclock directed to pavilion one to abide Went to Broome St Church last eve first to young peoples Prayer meeting then to the usual services [page 238] Tuesday, December 8 Mail letters to day one to wife one to Isaac G. Gardner one to John Fithian Very cold but clear Hon Schuyler Colfax elected Speaker of the House of Representative by a good majority Repub. [page 239] Wednesday, December 9 Do not feel first best to day beautiful weather but very cold wind Last evening thanksgiving meeting in the chapel in accordance with the recommendation of the President No war news to day Surgeon notices me to day for the first time gives no orders however [page 240] Thursday, December 10 Slept very cold last night Most splendid morning the sun is so clear + bright Read the Presidents message + Proclamation to day + write to my Father + P K Armstrong according to Sec of War the draft of last summer furnish 50 00 men + ten millions of dollars [page 241] Tuesday, December 11 Still very cold but some cloudy snow towards night write to Brother Edwin very dull day Paymaster around but does me no good reported all not fit for duty will be sent home for the holidays I want to go home for a stay [page 242] Saturday, December 12 Snow on the ground this morn not very cold to day but 10 postage stamps Jeff Davis message in to days papers. The Monitor Weehawken sunk in a gale off Charleston harbor report in to days paper 30 lives lost Carlessness intimated. Quite a question in my mind whether to go in the Invalid Corps or not what will I have to do indoor or outdoor services is the idea if my hands were sound I would not care [page 243] Sunday, December 13 morn rain + high wind even cloudy + still went to chapel at 10.30 quite a number out. Write to my wife in the afternoon. The men are very quiet considering they are Soldiers + in the Hospital without much to do or attract attention. [page 244] Monday, December 14 Morning foggy + rainy Finish + mail a letter to my wife to day also a paper to Willie [page 245] Tuesday, December 15 Geo. W. Ostrander + I want to go home more than most can imagine what is the use of our staying here have I not done my part for my Country I suppose not or I should be dismissed. To much am I inclined to complain Is it best for me to go into the In corps 2 or 3 letters would settle the question with my mind I think without doubt [page 246] Wednesday, December 16 Time still flies swiftly but silently by + here I am still in Hospital; seems to me wasting time. What can I do. If this war would only come to an end or I could be discharged I would be suited next send me to a Regiment or give me some employment where I could be comfortable but to sit here dad after day subject to the whims of an Irish or Dutchman that cant see beyond the end of his nose is almost unendurable. I do wish I could get some letters from some body or somewhere. It is said N Carolina is about to send Commissioners to the General Government to treat for peace It would be a blessing if all the States would follow the example it would not [page 247] Thursday, December 17 Attended a lecture last evening by Rev Dr. McVean Subject Life in China illustrated by a chinese map of the World idols chopsticks incense ladies shoes books papers. A Soldier gets 5 cts a day boards + lodgers + clothes himself The whole object of life in china is Sons + money: daughters are a misfortune. Marriage takes place at the age of 16 or 18 yrs a fashionable dinner party occupied from 3 to 5 hours + there is placed upon the table from 25 to 40 different kinds of food. No women are allowed at the table Thank God that I was not born in China though there is more danger for me at the last than for him. [page 248] Friday, December 18 Rainy day yesterday + last night very hard with high winds Raining this morning, quite fast by spells not a letter have I had since I left home a fortnight ago. It is very wrong to use me thus is it not: how shall I know that all is well at home. Received a letter from my wife to day. A good one [page 249] Saturday, December 19 Cold + clear this morning A boat load of men went away yester I went to Chapel last evening a good discourse Subject Be diligent to make electing + elections sure but I cant see or understand foreordination how can it be so. Have been out carting pails this afternoon so cold that I suffer severely It is curious that men are put in places they are not fit for. Men who have no thought ahead [page 250] Sunday, December 20 Very cold this morning but clear get ready for inspection at 9 oclock Have been to church at 10.30 + 7.30 to Bible class at 3 P.M. The evening discourse was Honesty + well done just what is wanted at this time especially by Gov Contracts There may be some honest ones but where are they thats the question wouldnt it be well to bring the thing to the notice of them that furnish rations to this Hospital. [page 251] Monday, December 21, 1863 How cold the wind is Have help scrub the floor this forenoon Mail a letter to wife to day stroll out with George w. Ostrander this afternoon No war news to day of consequence very dull here at the best so it goes [page 252] Tuesday, December 22 Cold wind yet Ordered to be ready for duty but do nothing till after dinner.Then fill some beds with straw and bring them in Draw an overcoat to day Get from the library Wash Irvings Sketchbook [page 253] Wednesday, December 23 Cold windy weather Attended a lecture by Mr Mervin Chaplain U.S.A. Subject Elements of Power [page 254] Thursday, December 24 Cold wind with signs of snow but no snow Write to Gardner + also to Emery brothers Albany No war news to day but lots of foreign news. There seems a strong prospect of war between the Danes + Germans over the Schleswig Holstein matter [page 255] Friday, December 25 Christmas day is here clear, bright, cold, + beautiful. A merry christmas to my wife, boy + girl. God bless them 5.30 have been to church to day + been without dinner + had to much for supper. Soldiering well what a world this is beautiful warm quite unnatural for christmas. The chapel all (rest of page is torn out). [page 256] Saturday, December 26 O glorious day beautiful + charming bright + warm. The day has been spent in first assisting in cleaning the rooms then rambling about the Island with George W. Ostrander: the evening George + I spent in chattering together No war news to day in fact the papers are decidedly dull (rest of page torn out). [page 257] Sunday, December 27 Morning cloudy rainy + rather dreary a strong contrast to yester + day before Went to chapel at 10.30 A M subject + text What is life well delivered + interesting Again to chapel at 7.30 P.M. Subject our record for the past year the The day has been very mild have been writing some to my home + reading Irving’s Sketches [page 258] Monday, December 28, 1863 The last Monday of 1863 may be remembered as a very rainy day with pretty brisk wind-the early morning quite cold + freezing I have finished writing and mailed a letter to my wife to day if in reading it she gets my ideas in spirit it is written all will be happy. A good deal of the time spent in getting up a draught of my plan for ditching. [page 259] Tuesday, December 29 Quite mild + agreeable day spent in rambling + reading Henry Conine leaves to day on his way to the Regiment. No letters from any body Papers say the draft will proceed the 5th of next month. England agrees to stand by the Danes Napoleon’s congress fails The rebels are in much doubt [page 260] Wednesday, December 30, 1863 A nice beautiful day warm have been scrubbing this A.M. went to hear Dr. Bliss talk about the Syrians last eve a good thing He comes out strong for the Union + the flag of our country condemns + charges England with being perfidious I opposed to anything on this Continent but republican Gov’mt The Syrian domestic customs are precisely the reverse of ours they call the point of a needle or a pin the head because it goes first carry a cane by the small end do not think it best to educate women an ignorant woman is easier to manage than an educated one Received a letter from wife date Oct 20 [page 261] Thursday, December 31, 1863 The last day of 1863 cloudy but not very cold quite comfortable. Went to chapel yester afternoon heard 1 Quaker preacher women talk come unto me all ye that labour. Very earnest + affecting was their talk would that I could remember it all. [page 262] memoranda [page 263] memoranda Purchase book to take home see OCt. 5 [page 264] memoranda Larkspur seed for lice Cloves nutmeg cayenne pepper for condiments raisins soda Azumea cinnamons. Looking Glass Johnsons Watch + a head + key cord B F Wright Wacth of John Harmon Jr., Brown Capt Himnan 75 No 98 Lousiana Avenue Aerated Bread [page 265] back page Transcribed by: Joyce Hicks http://cdm17353.contentdm.oclc.org/cdm/ref/collection/civil/id/26054

Holcomb, Edward Diary (1863)

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